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Have You?

You have never lived alone,
To be on your own.
With a vigilant and watchful eye,
On every possible angle in your life.
Have you?

You have never had the experience,
Of creating to walk on your own path...
Hoping not to be attacked, backstabbed,
Or laughed at.
Have you?

Have you ever found yourself in a corner,
And up against walls that seem to close?
But chose to crawl away from them,
To stand tall with everything about you exposed?

You have never felt pain,
That made you fall to your knees.
With just your faith AND God,
To relieve you from your agonies.
Have you?

You have never found a peace of mind,
To leave all your tragedies and suffering behind.
Or ever felt blessed with a happiness expressed,
To address your life as being very precious.
Have you?

Have you attempted to undo,
All those sorrows you go through.
Have you?

I know you haven't!
And, how do I know this?
All I hear from you are complaints.
And how you've been victimized too!
With not a sign from you to prove,
There is a concern for others...
Or an understanding that is not about you.

And all you wish to do...
Is to have more time to be negative,
Thoughtless and self-centered.
And this...
You have done as if experienced.

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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Today I Care

At one time I cared less,
About your thoughts.
And how they were expressed.
I was too busy collecting 'things'
Believing they would bring me a happiness.

At one time I perceived,
My needs were different than yours.
I thought of life as a contest...
And doing whatever I could to win,
Regardless of any suffering you did...
Behind 'your' closed doors.

That was a problem 'you' had,
I chose to ignore.

At one time I thought myself better than most,
If I had a college degree.
Afterall, so many didn't!
And I was getting 'mine'...
With very-little-sleep,
Indeed.

Any sacrifice committed I did,
Was done then for selfish reasons.
There was something I wanted to prove.
And selecting those I wished to please.
That is what I then did do!

I had corrupted thoughts.
Brought about by ego.
I had corrupted thoughts.
That would glorify my name.
And I was not above shame!
I had corrupted thoughts.
Not criminal but close.
I had corrupted thoughts I chose...
To drive a nice car and wear fine clothes.

Petty I know.
But I needed then to boast!

At one time I cared less,
About your thoughts.
And how they were expressed.
I was too busy collecting 'things'
Believing they would bring me a happiness.

At one time I perceived,
My needs were different than yours.
I thought of life as a contest...
And doing whatever I could to win,
Regardless of any suffering you did...
Behind 'your' closed doors.

But today I care about you more than ever.
Feeling us connected...
In a 'together' seperateness.
Today I care about you more than ever.
Both of us have been blessed,
Not to live it to impress.
But to be grateful for life as it is!
And that should be expressed.
To leave God to do the rest,
At His best!

At one time I cared less,
About your thoughts.
Your needs and your feelings.
Until I awakened to realize...
They were my own!
And 'that' God has shown.

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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Feeding On Evil

The creating of rivalries that eventually leave,
People improverished...
Builds up feelings of being superior,
And strengthens mental securities...
Of those with low self esteem,
Who practice with weapons to destroy human beings.

Those with thoughts like this,
Are no different than a cancer allow to grow.
Even though the cures to relieve these agonies,
Have long been made available.
But fear has it advantages,
To benefit the ones unconscious.

It's in the advertising of good hype,
That keeps people supporting...
The creation of fears and misdeeds,
With beliefs those of deceit and greed...
Actually have sensibilities to heal wounds.
They wont since it's not to their best interest.

The creating of rivalries that eventually leave,
People improverished...
Is,
For reasons to be left condoned...
To diminish all quality of life as shown.
And the ending of humanity if not stopped.

Even though,
The cures to relieve agonies that come...
With an intentional implementation of grief that is done,
Have long been made available to eliminate sorrows.
To ensure this existence of life,
Is enjoyed by everyone blessed to be gifted with it.

The markings left by the beast feeding on evil increased,
Will be decreased to cease and soon!

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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Walk Tall

Cant wait to see you say black is white
Cant wait to hear you
Tell me lies
Say it with flowers
But Id swallow too much pride
Stop counting the hours
till Im right there by your side
Walk tall
Ill never crawl to you
Walk tall
Not if you beg me to
Wishing and hoping
To see the light
Waiting and praying
It will be all right
Remember the days we spent
Just lying on your bed
Remember how crazy we went
Right out of our heads
Walk tall
Ill never crawl to you
Walk tall
Not if you beg me to
Walk tall
Ill never crawl to you
Walk tall
Not if you beg me to
Walk tall
Ill never crawl to you
Walk tall
Not if you beg me to

song performed by by Omd
Submitted by Lucian Velea
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Escape Mechanism

I was in pain, in agony
and saw no way to gain relief.
Then all at once I seemed to be
beside myself quite literally.

Some how I had escaped my pain
just left my agony behind
so I was comfortable again.
I thought at first I was insane.

And yet I knew I was still me
but by some magic of my mind.
I had escaped I’d struggled free.
Although it felt quite strange to see.

My body sitting in my chair.
To see myself from the outside.
As though I was both here and there.
I found it rather hard to bear.

I wondered then if I had died
and that was how I came to be
Observing myself from outside
I understood I must decide

I had a choice to be pain free
and leave the life I knew behind.
I chose somewhat reluctantly
and I returned immediately.

Back to the inside looking out
I don’t pretend to understand
what happened but I have no doubt.
Although I rarely talk about.

The day I found that I could be
in two places at one time.
Experience simultaneously
to be pain wracked and be pain free.

I sometimes voluntarliy
decide to take a holiday
from aches and pains which distress me.
Be pain free temporarily.

All men must die and so will I,
I do not let it worry me.
But until then I can but try
to bear my suffering patiently.

When it gets to much to bear
I close my eyes and I escape
to somewhere else I‘m not sure where
nor do I think I really care.

1-Oct-08

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poem by Ivor Or Ivor.e Hogg
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Loyal Faith

Doesn't it appear easy for some,
To tell others...
How to deal with their pain?
What to do with their feelings,
As if they can feel the same?

Someone told me they knew how I felt,
Once.
Because I 'told' them so!
But they heard words...
Not the depth of my torment,
Felt!
Or the heartbreak I carried and towed,
Inside my heart for decades!

And I am 'not' one of those,
Who announces agonies with glee!
Like some folks can not say hello...
Before they share every misery invisible,
No one sees when they are forced to leave...
These grieving leeches!

These are the people I don't need around me,
At all!
I know my journey has not been an easy one.
And I see very few skipping through their sorrows.
And that is why God and I are team-mates!
We've been close since my birth!
When I get tired and stressed,
With any old or fresh lingering mess?
I confess it.
Getting it off my chest!
I tell God right then...
It's Your turn to deal with the rest!
I've done my best.
And I am aware of my limitations!

I am 'not' going to try to impress.
With an understanding I wish to address.
Oh no!
Been there! Done that!

'I'll be right here working on my happiness.
If it is necessary for me to be disturbed...
Overwhelm me with guilt,
To quicken acts...
Of my begging for Your forgiveness, Father! '

My relationship with God is well deserved.
And known to be one of devoted loyal faith!

'Father...
I thank You for keeping me,
From being mentally malnourished! '

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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A Victim Of Learning Too Many Lessons

Why is it that it seems,
You express little empathy...
Towards those who are currently,
Suffering from hunger, homelessness.
And a loss of their dignities.

'I began to express that years ago,
When the sight of it would hurt me so.
And I witnessed those with turned up noses.
Pretending what was exposed,
Had been a dilemma others chose.'

But the circumstances today are quite different.

'How and why? '

Those who suffer,
Have lost their homes and valuables.
And images that impressed,
Others in a lesser position...
They never took time to address.
With their empathies expressed.

'And...
Your point is what?
Their suffering done is more effective?
And my empathy given to them,
Should be more reflective? '

But the circumstances today are quite different.

'How and why? '

These people have never experienced,
A life lived like this before.

'Neither had my ancestors.
But guess what? '

What?

'When my ancestors suffered,
They never discriminated by looking away.
And today you can say...
I am a victim of learning too many lessons.
And when I am shown a negligence,
By them expressed...
What am I to do?
Show them I have not been taught by the best? '

But the circumstances today are quite different.

'How and why?
Are these new lessons I have not recognized?
Have those old lessons been changed,
And are now disguised? '

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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I Felt Freed

One day I awakened,
And there was an insignificance I sensed,
From yesterday!
That cleared the morning air.

There was something about my life,
That had arrived and I liked.
Appearing in my sight...
With such a happiness I could not ignore.
It was there to make certain,
I had been aware.

And whatever to me was done and/or said,
Before I laid my head down in my bed...
Prepared to flee.
Somehow this was unknown to me.

And when I had awakened it had fled!
No longer to me to be important.
To address as my priorities.
And I felt freed!
I felt freed.
I felt...
Freed!

To live a life much more motivated.
With a quest to face challenges...
I now seek and dare!
As opportunities to prove...
I can move anything off my path,
That isn't of benefit and doesn't belong there!

And I felt freed!
I felt freed.
I felt...
Freed!

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For

I have climbed the highest mountains
I have run through the fields
Only to be with you
Only to be with you
I have run I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
Only to be with you
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
This burning desire
I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
I believe in the Kingdom Come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
But yes I'm still running
You broke the bonds
You loosened the chains
You carried the cross
And my shame
And my shame
You know I believed it
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for
But I still haven't found
What I'm looking for

song performed by by Cher
Submitted by Lucian Velea
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Heart can't be stone

Basically no heart can be stone
If so then it must be gone
If you are kind enough and loving
Everyone may start believing

Love and affection is what we feel internally
You can deceive people externally
But change comes at appropriate time
You come to terms and change it any time

Females do perform miracle
As they are kind enough and capable
They can turn barren land into fertile one
When honestly think of it and done

Moment you feel for others or develop soft corner
Think that happiness and joy may return by her
Prove that you are worthy of and care for sentiments
Life can be made worthwhile when some one is found like friends

Love it from every angle and give one chance
Feel from within and opt out at once
You shall be reliving actual mission
Life may prove enterprising without any guilt admission

We are, in fact, love hungry people
Prefer peace at heat and expect no troubles
By chance if something goes wrong
We feel disheartened and fall for sad songs

Men and women are created specially
To carry on as desired silently
There can be no unhappiness around
Joy and peace is always found

poem by Hasmukh Amathalal
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Unload the Excess Baggage

I am not the one,
To walk around validating...
Every pinch felt from an illness.

Or am I the one to carry pain,
As if I've been awarded...
A medal for valor and honor.

Each day as I pray...
And after I awaken,
I feel tremendously blessed...
That God has pulled my sisters and I,
Through much heartbreak and stress.
We, in those days, believed we needed to address.

And when I hear some folks,
Making excuses for mistakes they've made...
I can go through any day,
Without seeking to be medicated.
To fake my feelings to numb the aches.

I want to keep it real.
That's how I feel.

I am not the one,
To walk around validating...
Every pinch felt from an illness.

Nor am I the one,
Seeking to skate through a life...
Speeded by an easy breeze.

God has blessed me!
And I know this.
And there is nothing better I can do...
Than to hold my head up,
And unload the excess baggage.
To live the best life feeling grateful.
And blessed to be able to confess it!

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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Finding Happiness

'Finding Happiness'
Yellowing pages curl as history flexes and bends.
With tangled stories and lives our mind we defend.
Life remedies by our kinfolk we have been told.
Folklore we have woven tightly within our soul.
On earth’s venture all life’s learning in soul we tote.
Each new moment seems to bring unfamiliar notes.
With a passion for peace within a confused mind,
We retrace our path hoping a better song to find.
Don't mind what others may do or what they say,
Take some time alone in nature admiring today.
Each moment is perfect as it comes from above,
Showering each of us with an unconditional love.
Be silent and still, clearing the mind of every thing,
Then we shall hear the daughters of music sing.
They play and sing for each of life's special song,
Healing our soul of ill will, making our mind strong.
Then we may dream walk right into the spirit plane,
Where we may relieve ourselves of grief and pain.
Though our mind may sometimes wander so far,
Happiness is a state of mind right where you are.

poem by Joseph Blitch
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I Chose to Like My Own Life

I chose to like my own life.
It wasn't easy then to do it.
Since many then pretended,
With no identifiable dignity.
Or a pride that had reality.

I chose to live my life right.
Free of masquerades,
And...
Those days I spent charading.
With dim light to pass.

I chose to greet the morning Sun.
Feeling a freedom at last.
Like never before I felt could be done.
I opened the door inside of me once closed.
And released my own mind...
To find a truth I could believe,
See and daily breathe.
And wanting more of 'me' exposed.

And I chose to like my own life.
Not finding fault or wrong with it.
Or defending what for me felt right.
What for me I knew existed.

I chose to like my own life to live,
As I do...
To prove,
It is mine to live it as I choose.

And this day I choose to live my life!
And so peaceful do I sleep at night.
Free of masquerades,
And...
Those days I spent charading,
Behind an assortment of masks.
With no direction on my path,
Cemented and paved.

I chose to like my own life.
It wasn't easy then.
Since many then pretended.
As if that was their task.

And pretending for me,
Has ended.
As clear as unstained glass,
Allows light to pass through it brighter...
With no intention to leave a blemish.
Coming as it does,
To radiate that which lives.

And this day I choose to live my life!
For me...and you too.
To get those deeds we need to do,
Done.
Knowing now we have identified,
And overcomed the fear...
Of liking one another like we like ourselves.

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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Helpless

Day is warm, I hear
The wind and the trees
I know Im there, but Ill never be...
The wind is soft tonight
The tide is low
And I know the way
I never felt better, now
Sometimes life, it moves too slow
Slows to a crawl,
And then the poetry is lost
And without speed,
Hope becomes certainty
And for once, Im certain
I never felt better, now
A garden is its own perfect world
Where everything has a place
Mmm, every leaf, every stone
Every speck of dirt
But wheres my place?
I never felt better, now
I even tried
To get arrested today,
But everyone looked the other way
I count the hours
And I count the days
But for once, Im certain
I never felt better, now
Dont want your help
Dont need your help
Dont want your help
Dont need your help
Helpless x5
[you found a way to make me say, help me please someone] x2
The waters clean
I see that its full of dimes
For every wish, I wonder why
Why all I want
Is something beautiful
A place to rest
I never felt better now
(whistling)
Dont want your help
Dont need your help
Dont want your help
Dont need your help
You found a way to make me say, help me please someone x5
[helpless] (repeated)
Found a way, found a way,
Found a way to make me say, help me pleas someone
[help!!!] x12

song performed by by Faith No More
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Knowing I Can Not Accept Less

When I approached...
I could not keep,
My sincerety from reeking.
I sought to seek your closeness.

Concerns I expressed,
With a heartfelt depthness.
Yet,
This became a sign for you...
To undo my goodwill.
And attempts to bring you joy.
I came to offer myself.
Hoping for a future,
The two of us could build together.

But you chose to see this,
From a limited perspective.
And from that mindset,
I have elected to disconnect.

If you are prepared,
To disrespect a sharing of my happiness...
What from you would come next?
Shallow comments made...
About whose life lived is best?

After taking the time to neglect my own steps,
Why should I linger in regret...
Knowing I can not accept less,
Than what is expected from you!
More abuse to confuse the issue?
I think not!

And in review of what has been done.
Giving in a way to you I pursued...
That has been thorough and thoughtlessly crude.
With a mindlessness shown to shun?
Why should I wish,
For a mending of this distance?
Needing not for me to miss.

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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Trial and Tribulation

If you allow yourself
To sink and wallow
In misery and fear
It will surely overcome you
Until you slowly disappear
Return to me,
I beg of you
You'll always have
A place here

Don't let the world tell you
Who you are
Don't let the world decide
who you're not
Sadly, you're still battling
Demons
Everyone else has already
Forgot
So preoccupied in the race
To catch up
That you only end up falling
Further behind
Carrying the weight of the world
Upon your shoulders
With nowhere to turn or hide
Darkness arises
And overwhelms you
Creating a heavy heart
Brewing trouble in your mind

No one but God
Is Judge and Jury
It takes time to heal
There's no need to hurry
Searching all the wrong places
Trying to fill your need
For love and validation
Causing so much devastation
It brings you to your knees
Repeating the same mistakes
All over again
Causing old wounds to reopen
And bleed

Learn your lessons
Walk through the pain
Look for the sunshine
As you walk in the rain
Once you've lived within
Such suffering
And come out on the other side
The victory of happiness
Belongs to you
The calmness from peace of Mind
Blessed you'll be with
Newfound appreciation,
For the Glory that is Life

poem by Erika Wingo
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Today I Do Not Stand Alone

Please,
I need no praises of platitudes from you.
I am just a basic man...
Encouraged by a mission,
That enforces me to take a stand.
And those who know my feelings are deep,
Have encouraged me to be the man I am.

I have never found my path taken,
Cleared free of debris.
I've witnessed obstacles laying upon it...
I thought impossible to free.

I am not stranger to heartache.
Or those emotions that have gone out of my control.
I've been approached by folks,
Who didn't know me at all...
But felt it okay to test me and provoke.

With faith I rid myself of doubts.
And today I am in constant prayer.
I know the truth about what love is!
And blessed I am to have those in my life...
Who are quick with me with theirs to share.

Please,
I need no praises of platitudes from you.
I am just a basic man...
Encouraged by a mission,
That enforces me to take a stand.
And those who know my feelings are deep
Have encouraged me to be the man I am.
I need no praises or platitudes,
To do what it is I am expected to do.

And if I was seeking an easy way out,
I'd be silent like the others...
With not a word you would hear,
Expressed publicly to come out of my mouth.

And on those stages I am glad to say,
Today I do not stand alone!

I am not a seeker to make speeches.
With an eye for open debate!
I desire to teach to leave lessons learned,
Some I hope are understood...
With a comprehension sacrifices have been made.

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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Inspired By Motivation To Move

Take it.
Strap to straddle,
Or carry on your back.
Don't look up or around.
Adjust the weight if you must.
Get acquainted with your struggle.

If what is packed,
Has been discovered on your path to add?
There is no need to ask for understanding.
Or waste a bit of time trying to be understood.
No one will.
No one could.

Every obstacle and task,
To be experienced on your journey...
Will have no one's concern but yours.
Just like your birth made with announcement...
And first steps taken you took,
Required your desire to light your own fire.
Inspired by motivation to move.

That's why that light inside you yearns,
To choose...
And do,
To prove...
You will and can if you decide,
Your life can not be lived by anyone better!

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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Only The One Feeling It Knows

Letting go of a pain felt,
Is not with a time given...
A destination claimed,
For anyone else to suggest...
How best another should deal with it.

Even a healing thought done successfully,
Can not erase the revisiting of memories.
And how a pain started,
To seem to stay and never completely leave.

Letting go of a pain felt,
Is not with a time given...
A destination claimed,
For anyone else to suggest...
How best another should deal with it.

Many don't walk around with what is inside,
To display on exposed sleeves.
An emotional bleeding is difficult to perceive,
If one appears to be contented with a happiness to see.

Letting go of a pain felt,
Is not with a time given...
Or when that time feeling it goes!
Only the one feeling it knows.

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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Forgotten Embrace

Through you I saw the Light
Through you I saw what is Right
Through you I felt my Freedom
Through you I found my Kingdom

Then it was taken away
Because of one forsaken mistake
Not knowing what I had
Now it is Forsaken again
Now my tears fall Unknown
While your tears are embrace by one of your own

A kin of mine
Not by blood or Birth
Only a kin of mine because of Rebirth
Emotional Loss and Emotional Pain
Emotional memories lost again

For those who experience
The pain I have felt
For those who experience
The Loss and the Hell
Are forever tied to me
But Never compared with me

My love for you is as deep as the ocean
My love for you is as true as the wind
My love for you is as warm as the fire
My love for you is an solid as the Earth
....
My love for you is as forgotten as the Depths
My love for you is scattered to the World
My love for you is as deadly as the Heat
My love for you s as broken as the Earth

I know you chose the Ladder
I know you chose the Other
Dispite the signs we have seen
Dispire the Feelins we have felt
Dispite the Words we have beamed
Dispire the love in ourselves
You stand there walking
With you lover's embrace
Forgetting the One, who may die again

((Dedicated to Katie))

poem by Nathaniel Sickels
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Even Angels Fall

You found hope
You found faith
Found how fast she could take it away
Found true love
Lost your heart
Now you don't know who you are
She made it easy
Made it free
Made it hurt till you couldn't see
Sometimes it hurts
Sometimes it flows
But baby that's how love goes
Chorus:
You will fly and
You will crawl
God knows even angels fall
No such thing as you
Must stay on
God knows even angels fall
Its a secret no one tells
One day its heaven
One day its hell
It's no fairytale
Take it from me
That's the way its supposed to be
Chorus:
You will fly and
You will crawl
God knows even angels fall
No such thing as you
Must stay on
God knows even angels fall
You laugh
You cry
No one knows why
But all the thrill I layed on
Your on the ride you might as well
Open your eyes
Chorus:
You will fly and
You will crawl
God knows even angels fall
No such thing as you
Must stay on
God knows even angels fall
Even Angels fall
Even angels fall

song performed by by Vanessa Carlton
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