I 'Recently' Changed My Mind
Could I live with myself,
Sleeping with a seeking...
To revenge an act done to me,
Deeply sinking in as if intended?
And I promised myself,
To let such foolishness go.
Could I?
Would I hold onto thoughts,
Without a wish to abort them?
To continue to be reminded,
Who initiated the impregnating...
As if I laid in waiting to satiate it?
Would I be that consciously stupid,
To not use some kind of protection?
Forgetting what was done,
Forever!
Knowing inside of me,
This feeling would grow to sit.
Making periodic visits.
And could I go through belaboring a birth,
Surging to emerge and pretend it goes unnoticed?
Knowing in my mind it isn't worth it to suppress.
Or...
Would I be proud to deliver a healthy punch,
With my right as I might...
To address it as expressed?
'Owww!
What did you do that for? '
You don't think I am going to carry around,
What you did to me...
For months.
And not harbor 'any' remnants of ill feeling?
Do you?
DO YOU?
'But...
You 'said' you forgave me.'
I thought I did too!
Well...
I 'recently' changed my mind.
Ahhh...
NOW I feel okay about leaving it all behind.
poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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In A Windowpane
I looked into a windowpane
Last evening in a city far away
I was feelin sad and blue
I wondered then if I should really stay
Wanting someone to be with me in the light of this uncertain time
Waiting by the window for the man inside
To please make up his mind
Will you be one who passed through but never saw
Never knowing never feeling anything
Will you live your whole life through never knowing what to do
Will you be one who passed through but never saw
I walked along the roadway to a fountain
Where lovers come to meet
A hobo walked up to me, I could tell
He didnt have enough to eat
He said, good sir you look so kind
And though the years have stripped me to the bone
It seems I am the better man
For in this place Ive never walked alone
Will you be one who passed through but never saw
Never knowing never feeling anything
Will you live your whole life through never knowing what to do
Will you be one who passed through but never saw
Where will you be, my friendly, when your
Telephone aint givin out no calls
And when the seasons come to haunt you
Will you still find springtime in the fall
And when youre on your island
Will you wave at every ship that passes by
And will you feed a hungry man
I thank you, sir,
Now Ill just say goodbye
Dont you be one who passed through but never saw
Never knowing never feeling anything
Will you live your whole life through never knowing what to do
Will you be one who passed through but never saw
Will you live your whole life through never knowing what to do
Will you be one who passed through but never saw
song performed by by Gordon Lightfoot
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Unnoticed
It comes naturally because this one is from my soul
This piece of writing is a piece of the whole
It is a part of me because it describes my condition
That I'm unnoticed
This is my conviction
That this is a grievance which cannot be redressed
Because you've left me empty
No feeling of affirmation
Nor appreciation
You've left me
Because you just don't notice
I must confess
I do not even know if you care about me
If you'd care if you never see
Me again, would you lose sleep? Would yo miss
Me or just forget me like I think you would
Would you forget about me if you could?
What would you do
If I didn't talk to you?
Would you start the conversation?
Would you talk to me by your own volition?
Cause you've made me feel unnoticed and uncared for
I wish I could know for sure because 'Not Knowing' is the worst
'Not Knowing' is a curse
I wish we talked more
But what I want most of all (or at least from you)
Is to just know that you even care!
That you know I'm even there!
And if it's not too much to ask my dear
I'd love it if you enjoyed it when I'm here
With you, instead of making me feel unnoticed
But then just maybe I assume the worst and I'm mistaken
Just maybe you've always cared and never forsaken
Maybe I'm really a friend to you, if that's true I'm not sure what to do
Because now I'm convinced that you don't care and so I feel unnoticed
Maybe one day you'll read this and know it's about you
Tell me you cared all along
But shattered hopes have made me a cynic
And without your physical acknowledgment... a skeptic
So how could I hope
That you care about me, because I couldn't cope
With that shattered hope if it broke
So I won't make it, I won't have hope, so it can't be shattered
Instead I'll continue to live feeling unnoticed
Cause sometimes I feel you never thought I mattered
So farewell my love, this one's not forced
Farewell my love, not that you noticed I was ever here
Farewell, because I don't think you care, otherwise you would've said
So adieu, that means forever, adieu, adieu my dear
poem by David Knox
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Just A Notion
Just a notion - that's all
Just a funny feeling deep inside
Aah, that you're out there waiting
You're not sure I'm alone
And you wonder if I'm occupied
Aah, so you're hesitating
Just a notion
That you'll be walking up to me in a while
And you smile and say: "Hello" and
We'll be dancing through the night
Knowing everything from there on must be right
Just a notion
But somehow I know I'm not wrong
There's something happening
And I just can't explain
If I try it's all in vain
Because it's
Just a notion - that's all
Just a feeling that you're watching me
Aah, every move I'm making
Am I reading your mind
'Cause it's almost like your touching me
Aah, there is no mistaking
Dancing through the night
Knowing everything from there on must be right
Just a notion
But somehow I know I'm not wrong
If it's our destiny
There's nothing we can do
And tonight is very special
It's the night for me and you
Just a notion - that's all
Just a funny feeling deep inside
Aah, that you're out there waiting
You're not sure I'm alone
And you wonder if I'm occupied
Aah, so you're hesitating
Just a notion - that's all
Just a funny feeling deep inside
song performed by by ABBA
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Shangrila
Im bathing in warm liquid colour
Feel every cell in my body is music
Floating in hyperspacial sound
Visualizing the landscapes of my mind
Im opening the door to inner space
Im feeling the vibrasound
We can live forever
We can live forever
Strike that gong
We can live forever
Our love can live forever
In shangrila
Transform with inner guidance
To a place of peace and paradise
(oh what a feeling)
Relax let your thoughts drift away
(oh what a feeling)
Live in belief and harmony
(chance of freedom)
We can live forever
We can live forever
Stike that gong
We can live forever
Our love can live forever
In shangrila om
In shangrila om
Access your new state of mind
Dedication discipline
Searching the sensory science
Has resulted in shangrila
We can live forever
(forever & ever & ever)
We can live forever
Our love could live forever
In shangrila
We can live forever
(forever & ever & ever)
We can live forever
Strike that gong
We can live forever
In shangrila om
A piece of a dream
The color of green
The color of healing
In shangrila
Color of love
In shangrila
I feel the sacred healing chants
I feel the moment
Of my death
I feel the higher learning
I feel the realization of forgiveness
Compassion and loving kindness
Om
song performed by by Billy Idol
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As I Dream
Thoughts of you
come rushing through
like the rain that you watch pour
outside your window
and as I dream more
it's you that I want to hold
like the stars hold the night
Your love shines
like the morning light
it's a feeling I never want to let go
you're like nothing I knew before
their's something here
I just can't explain
I will take you forever
love you like you never knew
just you and me together
would'nt that be just so sweet
girl, you swept me off my feet
made me forget my pain
now I'm so into you
These days seems so long
waiting here my dear sweet friend
just closing my eye's to pretend
knowing where I belong
as I write you in a song
All that we have in common
the things that we share
it's like you and me
we were meant to be
as these days keep moving on
Now I need you to know
girl just how much I care
knowing this love is right
as I wait to hold you tight
inside me, you shine so bright
and now I love you so true
(spiritwind-2009)
poem by Spiritwind Wood
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Eva
You know Ive started to grow since youve been away
Lately its scarier not knowing whats become of you
Oh youre proud of me now, I can tell
Im not as fearless as you
Still I pretend that youre still standing by
To show me wrong from right
Never got a chance to say goodbye
Chorus:
Take this gift from me
Hold it deep in mind forever
And never let this go x 2
I used to think you were crazy
When you were hooked to the screen
But now they tell me that youre in a better place
But where did you go? (but where did you go? )
And I swear sometimes youre watching over me
Still Id give the world for the chance
Just to see your face again
Still I pretend that youre still standing by
To show me wrong from right
Never got a chance to say goodbye
Take this gift from me
Hold it deep in mind forever
And never let this go x 2
(now) now theres nothing left but time
Now that Im following you
Evas always on my mind
And it makes me wonder (makes me wonder)
What happened to you?
You know it makes me wonder
Still I pretend that youre still standing by
To show me wrong from right
Never got a chance to say goodbye
Take this gift from me
Hold it deep in mind forever
And never let this go x 4
And never let this go away
And never let this go
song performed by by Orgy
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Perfect Peace
I ponder deeply in my mind
For thoughts of peace and how to find
It only comes from deep within
You cannot fake it or pretend
Real peace comes when your mind is at rest
Knowing through life you've given your best
Believing in a greater power than we
Holding no grudges, being totally free
Having no ill will against neighbor or kin
Knowing the peace maker is living within
Giving of self to help others in need
Looking for nothing in return for a deed
Being true to one's self no matter the price
It's better to give until it becomes sacrifice
If you want to feel that total release
Then try all of this and you know perfect peace
poem by Brenda Whitlock
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Unexplained Feeling
Mind is going faint
My world is overloaded
I cannot bear all this stuff with which my mind must think
all this worrying is making my poor body feel sick
I don't know what to do
I don't know what think
I don't know what this feeling is that's making my heart sink
Is it love?
Is it Pain?
Is it Sadness?
I just don't know
How can I describe
This feeling I have deep down inside
It's like I've reached my limit
I've reached ropes end
Theres nothing left in my life that there to defend
What is this strange feeling that I cannot explain
A picture of a painting that has not been framed
this feeling that is a dripping tap
It's like tree who has no more sap
What is this feeling?
What can it be?
Is this feeling a part of me?
poem by Rachel Branscombe
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How Can I Knowing Myself Inside
How can I
Knowing myself inside
Knowing my lust and envy and fear and distrust
Knowing my weakneses,
How can I expect of G-d
To keep alive forever
The problematic being I am?
I idealize those I love
And do not try to know them
As I know myself –
They too being human
Are also not perfectly worthy
They too being human
Know sin within themselves-
And yet I try
I pray
I would not abandon those I love-
I ask God why to let die
Those who have such beauty and goodness
Those each one of which is a unique person-
I try –
Knowing God has not promised
To keep each of us alive forever –
I try –
Asking G-d to do what G-d has never promised –
And who am I
And what am I
To dare to ask?
poem by Shalom Freedman
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Naming Names.....
i wonder if you feel stuck sometimes,
claustrophobic inside a drum where the exit and entrance are all the same,
well covered, and you are nothing but that stuff inside waiting for the
right opener,
you are sealed,
and isolated.
you do not remember breathing, do you?
you haven't felt air, and you cannot even tell if it is fresh or stale
you too do not remember having thought of someone other than yourself,
you are too compressed and there is no space for growing
hair or nails or
whatever,
i felt this, and it was a feeling that stuck with me for a long number of years, such that i think that it is but a normal and
natural occurrence and for such an ignorance,
i never thought that it is worth mentioning or
complaining at all,
that having air is not a right,
that having space is not demandable,
that complaining is irritating to the ears,
and that being in such a
worst state, is -but a common situation in the world,
until you
learn that there is something wrong,
really wrong that you can bet
your life on it,
that if you cannot get it
then it is better that you
kill or get killed
two options only,
you die or you live
nothing in between,
how stupid can i be,
it is just recently that i know this,
and i thank you,
for letting me out,
and making me see that i am not
supposed to be in that drum
and that someone has answer
for the wrongs
that were intentionally
done.
let me
let me now,
name names.
poem by Ric S. Bastasa
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Top Of The World
(tom snow)
Ooh, baby Im going crazy
Everytime I think of you
Im excited, so delighted
I finally see the light shine through
I can see a million dreams come true
So hold on
Here we go
Ive got a feeling that is gonna grow
Up to the top of the world
Here I am
There you are
Ive got a feeling that were going far
Up to the top of the world
Gotta go higher, higher
Now the world seems like a sweet dream
When I look into your eyes
Its mystified
Theres no denying
The way you make me feel inside
And its getting stronger all the time
So hold on
Here we go
Ive got a feeling that were gonna grow
Up to the top of the world
Here I am
There you are
Ive got a feeling that were going far
Up to the top of the world
Let me go higher, higher
So hold on
Here we go
Ive got a feeling that is gonna grow
Up to the top of the world
Here I am
There you are
Ive got a feeling that were going far
Up to the top of the world
So hold on
Here we go
Ive got a feeling that is gonna grow
Up to the top of the world
Here I am
There you are
Ive got a feeling that were going far
Up to the top of the world
song performed by by Diana Ross
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Sonnet: Happy Birthday, Dear
Your birthday is a special day to you,
That brings fond memories of your earthly birth,
And thoughts of expectations high, anew;
It is a day you grow older with mirth!
With each birthday, you feel wiser and bright:
That success in your life is somewhat near;
You make your mind to continue your fight,
And try to live your life without much fear.
’Tis good to celebrate one more birthday;
Thank God for His kindness, protection, love;
Abide in Him and fervently do pray;
Our earthly life should markedly improve!
But never feel sadder on your birthday;
Feel proud to walk beside God in His way.
7-5-2002
poem by John Celes
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When My Mind Is Vacant
I love it when my mind is vacant.
A feeling of no need to please,
Immediately surrounds me...
With an ease I can deal with.
There are no imposed ideals to impress.
And I feel free to care even less.
I love it when my mind is vacant.
No pressure at all I carry,
To deliver intelligent thoughts I might think.
And no one there to ask for mink!
~I just thought I'd throw that in,
To see if you were paying any attention...
To this love affair I have with self.~
Seriously...
Don't you feel good,
When you mysteriously catch people...
Minding their own business?
And you know 'something' is special about this.
So you do the best you can,
To introduce your mind to more rest.
I love it when my mind is vacant.
No pressure at all I carry,
To deliver intelligent thoughts I might think.
And no one there to ask for mink!
And I am left not to enforce those delusions on myself!
Why is my telephone ringing at this hour of the day?
'Mister Pertillar, I know you're there.
This is Robert Clarke from Clarke Collections.
We need to talk about your 'commitment to pay'.
Mister Pertillar? Mister Pertillar? I suggest you receive my call!
Mister Pertillar? This is going to have an adverse reflection,
On your credit standing!
You are going to ruin your future capabilities to get a loan.'
Shucks!
I made a commtment to stay married too.
But that didn't work out either!
Well,
Like I was saying...
I love it when my mind is vacant.
A feeling of no need to please,
Immediately surrounds me...
With an ease I can deal with.
There are no imposed ideals to impress.
And I feel free to care even less.
poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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Is This What Feeling Gets
(quincy jones/nickolas ashford/valerie simpson)
Feeling?
Feeling?
Swear to god this is more than i can deal with
Thinkin' back on that old song
Where did i go wrong by caring and sharing
Mean together no matter
I can't stand not knowing
Is this what feeling gets
A hope for happy endings?
Alone and scared
Something i don't want to be
What did he see when he looked inside of me?
If this is just a dream
How come i feel like screaming?
This is the real world
Gotta do what you must, girl
Well
Can i?
Can i?
Is this what feeling gets?
So is there a happy ending?
There's nothing here but the fear of
Will i try?
And can i stare it in the eye
Not ever knowing why?
Please
Please
Can someone tell me why?
song performed by by Diana Ross
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Is This What Feeling Gets' (Dorothy's Theme)
(quincy jones/nickolas ashford/valerie simpson)
Feeling?
Feeling?
Swear to God this is more than I can deal with
Thinkin back on that old song
Where did I go wrong by caring and sharing
Mean together no matter
I cant stand not knowing
Is this what feeling gets
A hope for happy endings?
Alone and scared
Something I dont want to be
What did he see when he looked inside of me?
If this is just a dream
How come I feel like screaming?
This is the real world
Gotta do what you must, girl
Well
Can i?
Can i?
Is this what feeling gets?
So is there a happy ending?
Theres nothing here but the fear of
Will I try?
And can I stare it in the eye
Not ever knowing why?
Please
Please
Can someone tell me why?
song performed by by Diana Ross
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State Of Mind
You don't need to hang around
You don't need to talk right now
Gotta feeling, it's a mistake
Gotta feeling, it's gonna break
Some days, sometimes just don't feel right
Too hot to touch
It's getting too much
You know it's just a state of mind
Driving you wild
You're torn up inside
You know it's just a state of mind
State of mind
All I need is to breathe
All I need is to believe
Gotta have it, now I know
Gotta have it, take it slow
Some days, sometimes it just goes right
Too hot to touch
It's getting too much
You know it's just a state of mind
Driving you wild
You're torn up inside
You know it's just a state of mind
State of mind
State of mind
State of mind
Ahhh
Too hot to touch (Yeah)
Ahhh
(It's my state of mind)
Driving you wild
(I was driving you wild)
Too hot to touch
It's getting too much
You know it's just a state of mind
Driving you wild
You're torn up inside
You know it's just a state of mind
State of mind
State of mind
State of mind
Too hot to touch
It's getting too much
You know it's just a state of mind
Driving you wild
You're torn up inside
You know it's just a state of mind
State of mind
State of mind
State of mind
You know it's just a state of mind
song performed by by Holly Valance
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Whoever You Are
I could never live a life,
Devoted to your expectations.
Or have my self worth,
Crush by your disapproval.
I could,
However...
Continue to be who I am.
And I will.
Knowing whoever you are,
Depends on from who's mind...
You are defined as you spend time,
In the making of false impressions.
poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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My Loss
Watching as you drive away
Speed away so fast
Knowing something's different now
That ending was our last
Nothing describes the emptiness filled inside
Take me to that place
Where everything's fine
And not a worry in mind
Sweeter to the taste
This is my loss (my loss)
I did it wrong and i'd do it again
To be with you feels like the right thing
This is my loss (my loss)
I did it wrong and i try to pretend
That nothing's changed for all that you bring
For all that you bring
Simple is so complex now
So I understand
That I never thought that happy could be distraught
Help me if you can
This is my loss (my loss)
I did it wrong and i'd do it again
To be with you feels like the right thing
This is my loss (my loss)
I did it wrong and i try to pretend
That nothing's changed for all that you bring
Well I know I'm wrong
And you know I'm here
I don't want to let you disapear
What am I worth when your eyes were
Begging me in fear
I only want to see you again
And repair the wounds that brought me in
I don't want to think it won't happen again
This is my loss (my loss)
I did it wrong and i'd do it again
To be with you feels like the right thing
This is my loss (my loss)
I did it wrong and i try to pretend
That nothing's changed for all that you bring
For all that you bring
For all that you bring
For all you bring
song performed by by 1208
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Living A Lie
I can't seem to find out what I feel
Burned out dreams of others which I can steal
Take or leave this way I seem to you, it eats right through you
Ripped up parts of things I should do, I'll run around and tell you screaming
Oh I live a lie, oh I live a lie, oh why even try
I've been leaving thoughts below
Still I feel I should know
Still don't see much of me giving in
Much too strong to live outside these sins
Feeling like I'm taken lightly, think you see right through me
Words of those that still despise me, think it's eating me you're dreaming
Oh I live a lie, oh I live a lie, oh why even try
I've been leaving thoughts below
Still I feel I should know
When I seem to believe all that I've done wrong
You can take all that's right I will still move on
Taken all I can give it seems that I don't belong
Push me further from this go on
Oh I live a lie, oh I live a lie, oh why even try
I've been leaving thoughts below
Still I feel I should know
song performed by by 3 Doors Down
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Life After Death And Taxes (Failure II)
Hey taxi
take me strait to
the heart of it
the nucleus of politics
where somebody
started it
cause they taxed me
with a scalpel
piece by piece
they cut me deep
and bled me dry
until there was nothing
left to bleed
and this is how
i choose to live
as if i'm jumping
off a cliff
knowing that you'll save me
knowing that you'll save me
and after all the stupid
things i did
there's nothing left
there to forgive
because you already forgave me
yea you already forgave me
just keep driving
leave this defeat miles behind
so far back i'd have to rack
my mind just to remind me
i keep trying
to pick myself back up
and then move on
and think about the life
i'll have when this fragile
one is gone
never forget
there's life after death
and taxes
and forgiveness comes
then all of this rest
is what passes away
death and decay
can't touch us now
every breath that i inhale
is followed by exhaling
sure as the one who never fails
i know you will never fail me
song performed by by Relient K
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