Sad Bell

Sad bell languishing long after autumn
on a dead branch of the tree of knowledge
rooted like black lightning
in the lightless watersheds of my soul,
why have you left it so late to fall,
why do you run like a false prophet
from the truth of your own song,
hang back like a bird
weary of turning south with the others
like the weeping sands of an upturned hourglass?
Cruel life, kind life, no life at all,
everyone dies like the last word at the entrance
of the cave-mouth they were seeking;
the hidden treasure they marked
on their starmaps of thought and feeling
buried deep in their own eyes.
The key lies down in the coffin of the lock
and graves everywhere open their doors
to the stranger on the threshold
of his own homecoming.
Young, I asked
if there were access to clarity.
Now access and clarity have become one throne
in the middle of a busy cemetery,
and the hand-signals of the flowers
have traded in their uniforms
for crowns of fire.
I don’t expect to be understood
by anyone who hasn’t already achieved me
by dying in the attempt.
Lovers have come
and spread their legs like trembling, witching wands,
looking for a dropp of water
in a sea of shadows
and found in the morning
only the fallen petals of their own faces
littered around the bed like an orchard.
The lucky ones wake up
like the only survivor
in the starworthy lifeboat of my heart,
trying to establish directions they were never sure of,
needles adrift on the compass of the sea
as they cursed me like a reef of skulls on the moon
they ran across in the night.
Emptiness doesn’t maintain a priesthood;
there are no temples to death,
and compassion for most
is a glass jewel that shatters like defeat
in the doorways of opulent liars,
a raisin of blood
when there’s no one there to witness it
given out like the feast of a queen to the poor
innocent as the fraudulence of their sorrows.
Poor sparrows, poor worms,
fish in the birdnets of their constellations;
as they try to push the hook of the moon
all the way through their tiny hearts.
Love is a savage feather
coaxing a serpent of blood
to fly
and sometimes dragons spread their wings
like eyelids and eclipses
over the dawns and dusks
that offer their raiments
woven on the looms of the wind
like the pearl-encrusted Egyptian silks of the sky.
But if you want to reach the stars, touch the divine,
burn the stairwells and ladders of your spine
and rise on the rungs of the fire
that climbs itself like a rootless echo
or a voiceless vine,
making a vehicle of the silence
that abides you like a seed dormant in the soil of yourself.
Confide in yourself just once
as if no one else, not even you were listening,
and the darkness will know,
the great night will know
the taste of your light as its own
before it illuminates everything,
arraying the world in the wake of its shining,
despoiling the iron shrines
of your most cherished shadows
like the ghost of a whore
soliciting gold
from the pockets of the deepest graves,
hoping they brought their wallets with them.
The mind is not a paradigm of abstractions,
not a morning web out to catch a fly,
its beauty incidental to its function.
I have spent my life recklessly,
trying to enhance this spoof of nothing
with the natural eloquence of a river
that dies in the desert in a palace of salt,
labouring to perfect myself like a filament
that can bear the weight of the radiance.
In an impersonal world without beginning
even the seeing of the mesmerized beholder
is only an eyelash on a fly
compared to the splendour.

poem by Patrick White
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