Something Inside Of Me

I want to feel,
I am on a mission to forgive...
And let live as is.
I want to feel this.
Instead of visitations...
From suppressed bitterness.

I would like to forget,
I have healed and moved on...
With a peace of mind that within me sits.
I would like to recognize it,
Immediately.
But something inside of me,
Remembers the tears and the loneliness..
And I ask myself this...
'Why is my love so deeply felt,
And tested? '