I'm Not About to Love You...

I'm wanting more to see you less.
And yet I know this isn't best.
Because my heart gets much upset...
To think you might find someone new.
Someone who is not good for you.
Although I feel I am not either!
What am I to do?

I'm wishing for you better things.
Those things I know I can not bring.
And though you say it's me you wish.
I wish I felt that too.
Perhaps it isn't love I feel for you.
Perhaps this isn't love with you I choose.

And when we are apart,
I wonder why I miss you.
And when we are together,
I can't leave.

I've had a broken heart,
Before we met.
And that with you I can't imagine.
I wont invite regret!
To visit me again.
I wont let it.

But then I find I'm wanting...
You!
But not the haunting,
If one day you leave me!
If that is what 'you' choose to do!

I'm wanting more to see you less.
And yet I know this isn't best.
Because my heart gets much upset...
To think you might find someone new.
Someone who is not good for you.
Although I feel I am not either!
What am I to do?
I'm not about to love you...
Like I do!

I refuse,
To know...
I could with you.
Let's not admit that's what it is,
We do!

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
Submitted by Poetry Lover
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