A Challenging Undertaking To Maintain

Those urges come to surge deep within me,
As if I am to serve with a purpose on a mission...
That desires a need to sacrifice myself to improve.
'On what? '
That's the question I find myself asking.

And I wonder what it is I keep closely monitored,
That must meet with my approval?
Since no one believes my eccentricities,
Are difficult for me to keep sustained at all.
Few perceive my uniqueness has been a strategy.

Deviating from that which is considered by others,
As normal...
Is a challenging undertaking to maintain,
On a daily basis.
Trust me.

Especially if it is associated with 'reputation'.
And keeping all disappointments at a minimum,
Requires the kind of discipline few would suspect.
Yes!
Every step sometimes becomes premeditated.

poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
Submitted by Poetry Lover
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