At Times My Whole Life Feels in Disorder

At times my whole life feels as if in disorder,
there are times that I perceive your eyes
with every sunshine look
as if they are staring at me continually

and I see them in the sky’s bright blue,
there are times that I observe you
in the pretty face
of every other woman

while you want to live alone,
I am scared that you will disappear into oblivion.