So you call yourself a mother
Just because you gave birth,
Doesnt mean your worth,
Being called a mum,
Because you never acted like one,
When innocence is snatched away,
Its hard to live day after day,
Years have gone by,
But i still sit alone and cry,
For all the thing that were taken from me,
Especially my innocence and dignity,
You brought all these men into my life,
Watched while they cut my heart out with a knife,
So much damage has been done,
Arranged by the person i called mum,
Your grip on me was so tight,
In the end i gave up the fight,
Even though i was only a kid,
You gave them all permission to do what they did,
You always covered it up so well,
You knew i was to scared to tell,
So much inside me has died,
I wished i never lied,
To try to protect you
Now 36 years on,
Not an ounce of the pain has gone,
I cant find a closure for what you have done,
I keep on looking but cant find one,
There is no where to hide,
From this loniness and pain i feel inside.
poem by Brenda Fisher
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Suicide's Argument, The
Ere the birth of my life, if I wished it or no
No question was asked me--it could not be so !
If the life was the question, a thing sent to try
And to live on be YES; what can NO be ? to die.
NATURE'S ANSWER
Is't returned, as 'twas sent ? Is't no worse for the wear ?
Think first, what you ARE ! Call to mind what you WERE !
I gave you innocence, I gave you hope,
Gave health, and genius, and an ample scope,
Return you me guilt, lethargy, despair ?
Make out the invent'ry ; inspect, compare !
Then die--if die you dare !
poem by Samuel Taylor Coleridge
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The Suicide's Argument
Ere the birth of my life, if I wished it or no
No question was asked me--it could not be so !
If the life was the question, a thing sent to try
And to live on be YES; what can NO be ? to die.
NATURE'S ANSWER
Is't returned, as 'twas sent ? Is't no worse for the wear ?
Think first, what you ARE ! Call to mind what you WERE !
I gave you innocence, I gave you hope,
Gave health, and genius, and an ample scope,
Return you me guilt, lethargy, despair ?
Make out the invent'ry ; inspect, compare !
Then die--if die you dare !
poem by Samuel Taylor Coleridge
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So Hurt
Its hard I know to understand
Nothing lasts for ever
The things you used to say and do
The places you would go to meet
When you were together
You set your face against the tide
The harsh words that were spoken
But after all the anger
The shouting and the tears
You found your heart was broken
Fight the tears
Fight the fever
Dont give in
Soul deceiver
So hurt
With the pain you cant hide
So lost
And lonely inside
So hurt
When the feeling has died
So hurt
With the pain you cant hide
So lost
And lonely inside
So hurt
When the feeling has died
Just like the clock went back ten years
To make a new beginning
To work out how to live your life
To take the board and play the game
And recognise youre winning
Your memories mean nothing now
Youre just a little older
Moving forward with the crowd
Silent fears but laughing loud
Not wiser but just bolder
Fight the tears
Fight the fever
Fight the hurt
Dont give up
So hurt
With the pain you cant hide
So lost
And lonely inside
So hurt
When the feeling has died
So hurt
With the pain you cant hide
So lost
And lonely inside
So hurt
When the feeling has died
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Innocence of a child
In the dark of night
you would come
in the silence
of the hour
you would serve
Satan your master
taking the innocence
of a child
destroying a child's life
denying the child
a normal adulthood!
Have you ever thought
of your actions?
what you were doing
by the lust
that controlled you?
Who gave you
the right to take
the child's innocence?
yes, you, who gave you
the right?
After many years
of emotional suffering
a child entered
into adulthood
God embraced
the adult in love
Forgiveness in Christ
becomes the words
in the heart
freedom in Christ
the prize received
The abuser of the child
are then forgiven
Abuser of the child
did you find
God's forgiveness
before you died
many years later
I hope dearly so!
poem by Allen Brodell
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Romantically Ruthless
i have the organs and the ego of a sinning man
but like a woman my emotions are a spinning fan
you may find this had to believe
but love is just not enough for me
he gave me pain with complete honesty
even though i find this hard to believe
why do i try so hard it's never ever enough
he put all his faith in me and still made life so tough
strip me naked and taste my dignity
hide me in the love of my pain and misery
never again will you ever leave
it's just not enough - I can't let this be
you gave me death with complete honesty
even though i find this hard to believe
why did i try so hard? it was never enough
you put all your faith in me and still made life so tough
i have the organs and the ego of a sinning woman
but like a man my emotions are strong and cunning
you may find this hard to believe
but love is just not enough for me
she gave me pain with complete honesty
even though i find this hard to believe
why do i try so hard, its never ever enough
he put all his faith in me and still made life so tough
poem by Janus Inkblood
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Pain in my mind
Pain in my mind
Pain is what I go through,
Everyday
This pain fills me
Pain stuffed inside of me
Pain of stress on my life
You can feel the pain in my heart
I hide the pain behind the smile
I see myself in the past and I,
Dont want to return
I never knew how much pain,
cant hurt.
The memories of pain live,
on and on,
So much sadness in me
Years have passed,
Life begins again.
poem by Maria Luisa Taylor
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~.: *: .Gone.: *: .~
The days of your youth have slipped away
The fallout of innocence has brought you here
Take the pain inside, and show it through your lies
Your heart is shattered, thrown against the wall
Falling down amongst the pieces
Getting cut by your own heart
Believing you deserve every dropp of blood spilled
Standing up against the pain
Thinking on what has brought you here
The lies tumble inside your mind
Threatening to flow out through your tears
Everything has been taken from you
Your heart, your innocence, your life
And nothing has been given in return
Failing every day to know whether to go on
Pills in one hand, knife in another
The phone in front of you, with the message still there
The truth that it tells, the lies that it hides
With that one little word, 'No'
The answer to a very simple question
Of love that was freely given
Gone is everything that you are
poem by Arianna Loshnowsky
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What Did I Do Wrong
Inside me theres a voice
that wants to be listened to
I just cant find the words to tell you
You left me with an empty feeling
I walk with it everyday
Theres nowhere to run
Theres nowhere to hide
So it stays inside me
Pulling me down more each day
How could you do this
I gave you all i could
My heart gave you all it could
I bled for you all my life
I never gave you any less
What did i do wrong
For you to hurt me so much
What did i do wrong
That made you leave me
tell me so i can make it right
Just tell me what i did wrong
poem by Kerrie Maurer
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My world is falling apart and i can't stop it
i just want to hide,
i don't want to face the world,
it feels like it too much,
i'm slowly slipping,
and it like nobody catching me,
i'm losing my grip,
i just want out,
i want to numb the pain,
but i know that not the answer,
i want to scream,
but it no sound comes out,
i put on a front,
like everything okay,
but inside i am falling apart,
losing all control,
i don't know where it will stop,
i feel sick,
i feel like i'm losing control,
and i must find a way to hold onto it,
nothing is easy,
but if i open up,
than i'm weak,
if i give in,
than i want attention,
it just never seem to end,
i'm hurting inside,
and i don't know how to deal,
it like i don't have permission,
permission to feel the pain,
i'm not surpose to be 'that girl'
i'm a big girl,
i'm surpose to act tough,
but i feel like i'm losing the battle,
it feels like i'm letting ppl down,
like i have to remain tough,
while everybody around me falls apart,
it don't feel fair,
that i can't express myself freely,
the past and present combining into one,
it's a never ending fight,
all i ask is to be free,
but no matter what,
the pain follows me like a shadow,
i can't seem to shake it,
but i can numb myself to not feel the pain.
poem by Mona Martinez
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Again
Like an angel out the sky you came
Clearing up all the clouds, the sadness and the rain
So pure and healing was the love you bring
I knew inside... ( it felt so right )
For me, Ive struggled all my life
To find that thing that makes it right
With you it seems I may have found
Some other kind of love
I will love you all my life
Always be by your side
And I will give you all I have
cause you gave me peace and joy
Again, again, again...
I was scared to let go and trust your love
After what Ive been through I had had enough
Whispering through your eyes, you never said a word
But something said... ( your hearts safe )
For me, Ive struggled all my life
To find that thing that makes it right
With you it seems I may have found
Some other kind of love
I will love you all my life
Always be by your side
And I will give you all I have
cause you gave me peace and joy
Again, again...
A friend is what youll always have in me
Im so grateful for the man you turned out to be
And it doesnt matter who you happen to meet
Youll forever be... ( a sacred part of me )
I will love you all my life
Always be by your side
And I will give you all I have
cause you gave me peace and joy
Again, again, again...
song performed by by Jennifer Lopez
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Pain Has Never Left
For an Eternity I’ve felt anger
For a lifetime I’ve felt Pain
I feel pain for the little girl in me that had to grow up before her time
I feel pain for the teenager that never got the chance to have friends to lime
I feel pain for the young woman who everyone used trickery and deceit on
I feel pain for the adult who gave her hold life and soul to carry her baby
I feel pain for the adult who had her baby too early and prayed for him to survive
I feel pain for the woman who watched her son fight to stay with her
I feel pain for the woman who never got to hold him and tell him everything was going to be ok
I feel pain for the soul who watched her son died without doing anything to help him
Today I still feel a stifling pain
Towards the people who should have protected me and did not
I feel pain for the lashes life dealt me
I feel pain for the friends that used me, hurt me both body and soul
I feel pain for the child, girl, woman who could not bring herself to hate anyone
I feel pain, and even after every painful event in my life I could still pray and forgive
I feel pain all over, a pain that may never leave my life
poem by Lisa Roberts
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Question Marked Innocence
When we talked you promised
That you would never leave
Then I told you of the demons
And how they made me bleed
I made you promise crazy things
But your words weren’t enough
I couldn’t believe you loved me
I thought to love me was to tough
When I cry about my past
And say that I’m ashamed
I know that I am the one
Who is to be blamed
Then you hold me tight
And say that it’s okay
So I cry for my lack of innocence
And the things I couldn’t give away
When I can’t sleep through the night
And the memories start to hurt too much
I burn myself and tell you,
Because you’re the only one I trust
You say your better then you’re past
You tell me that I’m strong
You say that I’m the love of your life
But if you only knew
The kind of thoughts I think
And what I used to do
You tell me that it doesn’t matter
And that you love me anyway
So I cry for my stolen innocence
And the things I shouldn’t have given away
They all said my body lacked beauty
And it made my confidence fall apart
But when I let you look
You marveled at me like a work of art
I then held you close just to say
Remember this moment and don’t let it fade
So I cry for my question mark innocence
And the things I wish I gave away
I never felt a thing
Before I gave you my heart
And when those bad memories won’t fade
And I feel like I’ll fall apart
You will tell me you love me so
Then as you wrap your arms around me
And say you’ll never let me go
I know you really love me,
And you’ll keep me safe from harm
You know I’ve been hurt,
And abused in every kind of way
So I cry for my loss of innocence
And the things I gave away
poem by Lora Cooley
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She had loved
She had loved,
Loved with the passion of a thousand loves
All of her hurt and pain went into this love
A love that no one had ever known
The ache and hurt from all the others went into the act of loving
The abuse of all the others went into her passion
The pain of rejection from family and friends went into the love making
She could never feel the hurt again so she put it into the passion and heat they two had when they where together
And when she was alone she would cry for the pain
Pain for the fear that she might never love
Cry for all the abuse that was put onto her body
Some in part to find love
Some in part to feel something instead of being loved
She used her body as a vessel to get what she wanted
And never showed love when doing it
She gave herself to forget herself and all the pain and fear and anguish
She gave and gave and showed no emotion in doing so
She knew that no one would really know her
Or really loved her
They were all just lovers without the love and all of the passion
She used what she knew
And passion is what she knew best
She had passion in the way she walked and talked and all the things that she did
She never showed her true colors
Until she found that love
And poured it all into the love making that she gave and cried for a different reason
She now cried for the loved that she had found and wanted
She gave all of her and more then needed to give to one person
That love that she had never had and wanted so desperately she gave to this person and that person never really understood her
She thought that this would never end and never wanted it to
But when the love in the love making faded it was just empty
And from then on all of her became empty
She did not know how to show true love and slowly lost her passion
All of her passion for all of the things that made her lovable
So now she was never to find that love again
Now she was passionless and empty
Empty was she would remain to be
Hallow once again just a vessel for others to abuse
and confuse for what they thought was love
Love that she would and could never feel again
poem by Ruthy Fernandez
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When You Cry
Heaven knows you're with me now
Heaven knows that you're here
I feel your breath all around me now
And all the pain just disappears
It goes away, it goes away
And it only hurts, when you cry
I'm alone inside, when there's tears in your eyes
I can't hide and say I'm fine
But it only hurts, when you cry
You carry too much on your shoulders
I can't wait till you let me down
Cause the only thing we're getting is older
This time never comes back around
You just gave it, gave it away
And it only hurts, when you cry
I'm alone inside, when there's tears in your eyes
I can't hide and say I'm fine
But it only hurts, when you cry
When you cry
Heaven knows you're with me now
And I'll do my best to hold on
Cause nothing is worth all this fighting now
And I won't give up till it's gone
Make it go away, go away
Make it go away, go away
Cause it only hurts, when you cry
I'm alone inside, when there's tears in your eyes
I can't hide and say I'm fine
But it only hurts, when you cry
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All Cried Out
[Allure]
All alone on a Sunday morning
Outside I see the rain is falling
Inside I'm slowly dying
But the rain will hide my crying, crying, crying
And you
Don't you know my tears will burn the pillow
Set this place on fire
'Cause I'm tired of your lie
All I needed was a simple "Hello"
But the traffic was so noisy that you could not hear me cry
(I) I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure,
My heart never knew such pain
(And you) You leave me so confused
Now I'm all cried out, over you.
[112]
Cryin' over you, yeah
Never wanted to see things your way,
Had to go astray
For why was I such a fool (Why was I such a fool)
Now I see that the grass is greener
Is it too late for me to find my way home,
How could I be so wrong?
[Allure]
Leaving me all alone
Don't you know my tears will cause an inferno
Romance of these flames,
Why should I take the blame?
You were the one who left me neglected (So sorry baby)
Apology not accepted
Add me to the broken hearts you've collected
(I) I gave you all of me (Gave you all of me)
How was I to know,
You would weaken so easily
(I) I don't know what to do (I don't know what to do)
Now I'm all cried out (All cried out)
Over you
(I) I gave you my love in vain
My body never knew such pleasure,
My heart never knew such pain
And you
[112]
You left me so confused
[Allure]
Now I'm all cried out
Now I'm all cried out
Over you
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Being, here, now
First, I gave up asking, Why?
for I was never told the truth;
now I live in whylessness;
then I gave up asking, How?
for they said, best find out for yourself;
now I live in howlessness;
then I gave up asking, When?
for they said, who can be sure?
now I live in whenlessness;
then I gave up asking, Where?
for they said, where is it not?
now I live in wherelessness;
then I gave up asking, Who?
for they said, first know yourself;
now I live in wholessness;
and now I live without these questions,
the answers run toward me;
now I am more here and now, and
elsewhereness near gone;
for elsewhere’s here and now, I find;
and Other’s really One.
*
[leaning on Rumi]
poem by Michael Shepherd
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3 New Babies
CITY
We all came to the CITY
This city of love, joy & pain
We wet ourselves in the RAIN
We hurt ourselves again
We told them we wont CRY! !
We told them of the pain Inside,
Wouldn't lead us to DIE! !
But oh, we lied, we lied 2 them.
2 those who HURT us over & ova again....
For only those who HURT can Heal
Only then can the pain Reveal! !
to free us all, us all.... from the EVIL! !
The evil inside us all
LIFE 2
Sometimes I wonder why! ! Why I was
Chosen 2 LIVE this life! !
to hurt and cry and scream and pray,
to love & hate & then Betray! !
for some, it comes 2 easy@ hand, ,
For some, it leaves before we plan! !
For Life is an unwritten RULE......
& over it we all try 2 RULE! !
but he who thought so was a FOOL! !
a fool until his DYING DAY! !
For over life, he might RULE....
But DEATH...................it rules us all! ! ! ! !
WAY
Someday we all find a WAY! !
a WAY to find our own sweet WAY! !
Just Wipe the tears that I have cried! !
Just say the things that I have tried! !
For once we find a way,
a person 2 LOVE, a place 2 stay! !
Then life is oh but a sweet treat
a dream................that one might just meet
For when the RIGHT one comes along,
My heart breaks into a Song! !
A song so long it never ends,
A hurt so hard it never mends,
For that, my Dear.....................is the way,
the WAY 2 WIN Ma heart! ! !
poem by Kaavyaa Kriday
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An Emo's Prayer
If they ever cared and ever loved someone,
Then let them hear what they have done.
To me for a decade now,
Let them know it was they who made me take my final bow.
I am emo this is true,
But what have I ever done to you.
I sleep by a silver blade at night,
Holding it so tight.
With scarlet blood in my dreams,
Yet no sign of a holy beam.
I want them to know what I'm about to do,
And why they hurt me was pain longer over do.
The names they said to me for 10 years has been stuck inside my head,
Now they'll see me lye motionless in my bed.
They say that sticks and stones can break your bones and word shall never hurt you,
Yet the words did more than hurt me and gave pleasure to you too.
They wonder why I cut my wrist at night,
Why I hold on to my blade so tight.
I want to escape this pain in my life,
I will always cut with that knife,
Now tell me do you understand why I do this?
why the knife gives me such bliss?
It takes my pain away for a while.
And leaves me with a broken smile.
My time is up and I must leave.
Time for me to see.
I hear the angels bells,
Yet I'm heading towards hell.
poem by Alice Spakrs
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Morning Innocence
Morning Innocence
We’re all born with it
As children, its what we live on
Screw death and destruction
Its only life and love that
we want to know about
For that’s all we should know
Contemplations of death and destruction
Is just a waste of our breath
and a waste of our tears
Yet some may still wonder
'What is `Morning Innocence`? '
It’s the knowledge of knowing nothing
As children or as we wake up
Death, pain, and hatred are never
the first thing on our minds
This is Morning Innocence
Be it the beginning of our lives
or the beginning of our day
We know nothing...
Yet time passes we lose this
Morning Innocence
Even if it’s hours or years
We start to realize
All the death, pain, and destruction
That shall one day consume our lives
However, to the end of our day(s)
as a reflection of our souls
We accept it as it comes along
We’re brilliant...
We know everything there is to know
We know what is soon to come
Because this Morning Innocence
is no longer a factor in our lives
No more knowledge...
We’ve been exposed to it all
and yet we’re still being exposed
There’s ten million ways to die
and the number keeps growing
and now - we no longer have
our Morning Innocence
to protect us.
poem by Joseph Anthony Montefusco
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Life is worth living
Yes, life is hard...
As you grow older,
You'll learn what true heart-wrenching pain feels like.
You'll realize that majority of the people you once believed in will let you down..
You'll fall in and out of things that you think are love, and it'll hurt!
There'll be people out there that want to see you fall down,
It might happen..
But you'll get up, fake a smile, and move on..
You'll go from being called a brat to a bitch.
You'll be pressured to do bad things.
You'll keep secrets.
You will regret, but forget.
You'll be heartbroken, and break some hearts.
You'll fight with your best friend, and either keep or lose that friendship.
Things will get unbearable, and you will spend a lot of time crying.
You'll miss the spirit of your innocence.
You will survive though, I promise.
You'll fight on and you will live to see another day.
You will find true love where you least expect it,
You will be adored by many.
Life will move on and you'll realize that all the pain and confusion brought you closer to happiness...
poem by Lavanya Subramanian
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