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Manic Depression, and Opium.

Salty Tears
May embrace my fears
Yet, true love will never pervert me.

Riddles and Rhymes
My life-they define
Yet, sorrow may never desert me.

Powerful Dust
Consumes my life now-it must!
And, desire it does abuse me.

Sin Ridden Grief
May suck the life out of me
Until happiness, it only excludes me.

Needles and Syringes
Seem to throw me right off the hinges
And, only my mania is there to catch me.

Hysterical Tears
Are able to blind all the glares
Yet, tortured-they seem to stretch me!

Swallowing Pain
Drugs right through the vein
And, the darkness it does seduce me.

Body Shivers, Then Sweats
As I sit overwhelmed with regrets
And, still you are there to reduce me.

Junkies Do Crawl
Out from under the wall
But, it is my face that does surprise me.

Fallen From Grace
Like a horse losing the race
And, merciless, they seem to despise me.

A cringe and A Wince!
Following with pain-ever since
Yet, the needles they still invade me.

Vulture-Like Fiends
Ignoring my pleas and my screams
And, still they manage to pursuade me.

States of Depression
Panic-Stricken Obsessions
Yet, still I try my best to ignore them.

Minds Starts to Drift
Losing my talents and gifts
But, still I try my best to restore them.

Anger and Loathe
From them-I feel both
Yet, I simply won't berate them.

Torches and Flames
Strike! -As I place the blame
And, I just can't seem to escape them.

Mood Swings Invade
My life and mind, everyday
So, to self medicate will sedate me.

Opium and Depression
Will never allow my succession
And, forever it seems they'll degrade me.

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My Bizarre Reality

I'm snow white
With an ash painted face
A Japanese Gangster
Tattoo's in lace
A night purple shade
I'm Van Gogh's Sky
A Picasso Dream
-He must've been high

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It's Getting Ugly

They want to live
You want to die
You don't know why
You feel the pain
You scream his name
Crying
Trying
Unsuccessfully dying

Is this how it was meant to be?
You
Without me?
Is everything you say a lie?
Why the hell do we even try?
Why do we care?
Take the plunge
Do the dare

And then the day comes:
'I don't love you anymore.'
What is this life...
Worth living for?
Did I love you?
Do I now?
Could it be true
Someway, somehow?

Did you really
Shatter my dreams?
My voice is begging
For you to hear me scream
'Why me? ! '
I scream outloud
And, soon enough
We have a crowd

'She's going to jump! '
Somebody yells
TIC-TOC
The time tells
'Goodbye, ' I whisper
Oh-so-low
I hear some pleas
Of 'please don't go! '

So, forgetting life
Love, and hate
I dive into the air
Accepting my fate
Gasps, and cries
And, begs of 'NO! '
As I reach down
To closer below

And, then it's over
In a flash
My body is mangled
My head is smashed
I can no longer think things through
I can no longer think of you
A new escape-
I now begin
But, in the end
Did I win?

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Beautifully Strung

Strung out and beautiful
Kind of like my drug
Strung out and worthless
Now this is kind of fun
It's also kind of sad
Sort of like a song
One that has no end
Unless you pull the plug

Stop the screeching
In my ears
Erase the pain
Erase the tears
Stop the torture
Through my veins
Stop the violence
Stop the pain

I cannot take it
Anymore
I'm strung out-
I'm just a whore
To myself
Atleast I am
I sell my soul
With the needle
In my hand

I give my soul
Right to Satan
Then, laugh in pain-
Overtaken!
I laugh because
I cannot cry
I laugh outloud
But, want to die

Death consumes
Everyday
Death it does-
Pave the way
For my existance
For my life
All this pain
Like the sharpest knife

Piercing through
My wounded soul
My throat is gagged
As I pay the toll
Through the gates
I pass right through
And, I'm in hell
With out a clue.

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Just a Horror Picture

Look into my face
Look into my mind
If it's sanity you look for
It's what you probably will not find
Gone are the days
That I had peace of mind
The contract has expired
And I signed the dotted line
There was once a world
A world I thought I knew
But, along with my sanity
That world is gone now too
And, now I sit here stuck
I'm living in this hell
Drugs they did take over
It's my soul that I did sell
I sold it to the devil
As I shot another bag
And, now I sit in pain
And, scream and choke, and gag
But, I cannot stop these cravings
I cannot quit this stuff
The pain it is too real
The addiction is too rough
It's like a scary movie
That I dream to just rewind
Or pause or just start over
But, there's no button I can find
So on I go with living
But, it's drugs that I must quit
Because, I cannot take another day
Living on this sh*t.

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Have You Ever Been To Hell?

Have you ever been to hell?
Well, I can show you how it looks
It sits inside a needle
Guarded by the crooks

All the Devil's children
Stealing souls by day
No matter if we beg
Or, what we do or say

They take away our freedom
They cuff and tie us down
We try to scream out loud
Yet, we cannot make a sound!

The Devil's guards' they are
They sit outside the cage
Dressed in body armour
And, filled with only rage

And, once you're locked inside
You cannot even breathe
So, you better just prepare-
And, remember you can't leave

Poison it does come-
In many forms and shades
It tears apart the people
Who become the Devil's slaves

Fighting for a way
To try and stop the demons
As they enter deep inside
You can hear the victim's screaming

Yet, no exorcism works
The soul it has been taken
The pain is overriden
As the life has been forsaken

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Make Luv 2 Tha Dead

Seduced by darkness
A slave to the dead
A walking zombie-
So many lose screws in the head!

Uncontrollable feelings
To slice the vein in my neck
And, fall to the ground
A beautiful, bloody wreck

Dreaming of asphyxiation
To be choked, suffocated, and beaten!
Left in the darkness
Clawing and screaming!

The Demon's invade
Yes-they break through again
It's just a cycle of lust
And, obsession over death that won't end

Clawing at my skin
Ripping at the roots of my hair
Yet, I can't seem to find, now,
One single reason left to care

Death? It consumes me.
It takes it's hold, and grips firm
The struggle is infinite
The voice is repetitive and stands stern

I hear one million voices
But, they all say it too
And, there's no way to break free
I just have no fu*king clue

How it even began-
But, this IS my obsession!
And, I'm riding the waves now
Of a deep rooted depression!

I just want to bleed
To see if I'm real
But, even the deepest wound, it seems,
Cannot make me feel

So embracing this fate
That it seems I've been written
I accept defeat
And, allow myself to be bitten

By the bite of The Devil
As death pulls at my soul
My breaths, they grow weaker,
My voice screams out 'no! '

Yet, I continue this journey
I go on and keep walking,
And, as my body shuts down
I am no longer talking

I give into this craving
This twisted desire,
And, I finally embrace-
Death, as I drift higher.

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The Book Slams Shut

Tell me would I be more beautiful-
If I spoke just like you?
Would I be more willing-
To do the same things that you do?

Superficial and dead;
Yes dead to the core.
Feelings are overrated-
They just seem such a bore!

I felt them all once
Yes, I felt them before
And, then I felt as if I were dying
As if I were Death's Little Wh*re!

So I gave up emotions
I became cold and displaced
I wiped all the tears
That were streaming down my face

I couldn't handle emotions
In love, then in hate
So I ran from my feelings-
I won't be my heart's bait!

Rage now ensues,
Sometimes I feel it.
Yet, even my anger-
I can't seem to reveal it

Life is so fickle
Everything just seems FAKE
That is why it is this world
That I now realize I HATE

I just want to cut myself
To see if I'll bleed
This book now is finished!
It wasn't worth THE READ

So I'm slamming it shut
Yes, I toss it to the ground
No hate has been lost...
And, no love has been found!

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The House of Broken Souls

So I guess I'm going back
Yes-I guess I shall return
To a place where hearts are broken
To a place where souls do burn
Back to this place I go
Back again somehow
I must be getting back
I swear I'll go right now
Though this place is dark
Though the souls are dead
Healing is the game
The healing of the head
The body and the soul
A game to go on living
And, they dose me with this stuff
It's this stuff they keep on giving
To hide the pain
To hide the lies
To ignore the pleas
To overrule the cries
They shut us up
They turn the lights
We cannot win
We cannot fight
Oh my lord-I'm back here!
Not again
A cry-A tear
Rolling down this lonely cheek
Of this girl
So lost, so weak
Save her now
She's gone bad!
She's gone crazy!
She's gone mad!
I must know-I must ask
Why right now? Why today?
Is there not another way?
Save me Mom
Help me Dad
I'm so sick
I'm so sad
Pick me up-stop the pain!
It's pouring down
I feel insane!
I've lost it now
And, they do run
Away from me
I'm all of one
Alone at last,
So sad, so cold
I fade away
No longer BOLD
I try to run, I try to fight
I try to kick, I manage to bite
I bite down
And, you sit in pain
You scream outloud
You scream in vain!
'Save me Jesus! '
You do pray
But, the prayers won't save you
Not today.

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The Junkie's Prayer

This tidal wave
My life overtaken
I surrender again
To the piercing of my flesh
Blood spilling
Pulsating veins
One more time
And, tomorrow...
I promise to stop.

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The Dark Inside of Me

Can you really see
The Dark inside of me?
Can you really tell
That I have walked through hell?

Tell me can you feel-
The masks I try to peel
Instead I stand so cold
Lost, not brave or bold

Tell me can you touch-
My scars; they hurt too much
I just want to know
How to end this show?

Did I hit rewind?
Or do I try to find-
Someone that can be
The rescue within me?

Could the truth be here,
And, is it what I fear?
This person-now am I?
I look up to the sky

And, scream 'I can't believe-
This Demon's inside me! '
'Get this thing right out! '
'HELP! ' I scream and shout

What is this-I am?
Now, I take a stand!
I am trying to fight
I want to see the light

Now more Dark inside
-The light will override
This poison that I hold
How could I stoop so low?

Save me now-I scream
Wake me-from this dream!
I am stuck inside
No more tears I cry

Now I walk alone
My darkness only shown
But, I must break free
THIS-I cannot be!

Will you help me out
Won't you help me free-
What this is all about-
These Demon's inside me?

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Potassium is an Essential Nutrient!

I want to peel you
Like I might a rotting banana
Exposing your insides
And, savioring the good
Chewing and swallowing
What's left
Leaving the rotten parts behind
The skin left a heap on the floor;
Waiting for the next person to
Slip, trip or fall over
With the realization that it's empty inside-
Nothing is left.
Even the decay discarded
Seperately,
And divided amongst the pits of human waste.
With the consumption of your soul
Nourishing my body like a silver-white
Soft-light Metallic Chemical Element.

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We Are One-We Suffer Together

The Revolution lives…
Mind pollution gives
A reason to this game
A season with no name

A rapture's what we'll call it,
No, you just cannot stall it!
Giving in…seduced by dark
No longer just a Question Mark

Asking why? Or, how? Or, when?
In the dark-yes yet again!
We succumb to all the death around us
We feed and lie
As the rest surround us

A taste so pure
So bloody, fresh
We bite down
Upon the flesh

The sharpest fangs-
They pierce the skin!
And, then this revolution
Does begin…

Taking over, we steal their souls.
In the dark
So nobody knows!
We will win
We will fight
On we go-we feed, we bite!

We stand tall, we have risen
Up above; And now they listen!
Victory
We now know…
In the sunsless slime;
As they scream: "NO! "

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The Curtain Closes

I sit here again
Starting once more
Lost yet another friend
And, now I feel as if I've lost the war

Shattered and broken
Now I lay bleeding
A knife through the heart-
To stop the beating

So empty-so lost...
So beauitfully broken
I cry and I sob
On the floor choking

I give up
-This time for certain
I'm done with this play
Please just close the curtain!

And, one single tear drop
Slides down my cheek
As I pray to the unknown
To stop feeling so weak

And, then I stand
And I start walking
I open my mouth;
But, it's like I'm not even talking

I really can't take it-
It's too hard to believe
I did it again!
And, now I can't even see

So now I am falling
And, failing this test
As I hear death calling
I lay here a mess

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Everybody Is Broken

I'm looking around,
But, it's like everybody is broken!
Suffocation-no breathing!
We all seem to be choking
Spread on the ground
Just like shattered glass
Oh, to be free-
Free of this place now, at last!
Life, that is-
The Journey, the test.
This GOD forsaken battle...
We understand it less and less
Yes, all the broken people
Never asking to be here
Filled with nothing but-
The most intense despair
We fall down to our knees
We beg to find salvation
Ringing through the air
You can hear our desperation!
I try to look away
My eyes I try to close
Because, we ache so much inside
But, it's like it doesn't even show
The Darkness invades
The Dark-it surrounds us
We're bound and we're gagged
And, no light is around us!
We run, and we hide
We then beg for a chance
But, that drug it is sly
And, it takes us at first glance
I want to scream out loud
But, instead I sit here choking
Why are we so lost?
Why are we so broken?
Never really knowing
What to do or say
Never really seeing
The road that is the way
And all we see is darkness
So again we try to hide
But then we cannot find
A way now back inside
So where do all the people go-
When they've become so broken?
How can we prevent the death...
When they sit there choking?

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The Missing Puzzle Piece

I try to think
Of one reason you left me
And, I try to envision
Why you did reject me

Yet, I cannot seem-
To really place it
Or maybe I just can't
Really face it

How could I provide you-
With what heroin could?
How could I give to you-
What that drug, it would?

So seductive, so peaceful
Even graceful when dying
As we'd shoot through sky
So high we were flying

I think of your smile
I remember those eyes
So sad
And, so blue
A devil-
In disguise

YOU were my drug
YOU were my breath
And, now it is over
And, now I face death

So empty-I am
I feel as if I am dead
I now close my eyes
Because, I cannot look ahead

I remember the touch
-The touch of your hand
I remember those feelings
That I now know I can't stand

And, now part of me just
Wants you to bleed
To scream-and to cry!
To feel, and to need

To know what it feels like
To be abandoned
For you to do this to me
I could never even
Have Fathomed

Yet, there it is-
The writing's been written
Across the wall
And, I feel like I've been bitten

By something
That's powerful
And, deadly
And, raw

Like the bite of a viper
Yes, I freeze
But don't thaw

As the venom
Starts flowing
Right through my veins
I scream
And, I choke
As I now lie in pain

I try to get up
Yes, I try to fight
But, it doesn't seem worth it
It just doesn't seem right

So, I kiss you goodbye
And, then I spit in your face!
It is your existance
That I now dream to erase!

Your voice
And, your sorrow
Your anger
And, despair

Your need to keep using
The fact
That you don't even care

One time we lived,
United as one
But, that time has ended
Yes, we've come undone

And, like a puzzle that's missing
It's center piece
I'm left strewn and scattered
Overcome by defeat

Yet, you will be the one
To eventually LOSE
When you are the one
Who again starts to use

And you'll use 'till it's over
And, your RIPPED
And, your BROKEN

As you sit on the floor
Left rotting and CHOKING

And, then I will chuckle
Hell-I might even grin!
My life I'll renew,
A new life I will begin.

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The Credit's Song

I cannot take it anymore
These cravings drive me nutts

My world it's gone-it's so screwed up
My wrists they bleed with cuts

I scream out loud, I try to run
I fall right down, I have not won

This battle lost-a whole damn war!
And, I scream again-my heart YOU tore!

Right in half, you kidnapped my soul
And, EVERYTHING; this I know!

Goodbye to life, today is gone
And tomorrow-Goodbye, so long!

I gave it up, to this drug
I gave it up, so pull the plug

Life is over-as I know it
I scream inside, but NEVER show it

I can't go on-kill the beast
It is dead-it's deceased!

As I sit, I stare in pain
This drug it has taken over my brain

I cannot stop, I can't let go
This I see, THIS I know

Yet on I RUN-ON I GO!
With the script, to this show

A screwed up movie, about me
Can't you picture THIS MOVIE?

It ends the same, like the rest
I die in vain, withe the best

An addict gone, an addict down
A cry, a tear, a moan, a frown

I wave goodbye, I say so long
And now we hear 'The Credits Song'...

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The Great OD

One Pill
Two Pills
Three Pills
FOUR.

Ten Pills
Twenty Pills
Fifty Pills
FLOOR.

Fall down-
Hit the gorund.

Eyes they blur,
Can't make out a word.

Spinning in circles
Can't seem to breathe
Legs they are swollen
Feet they feel weak
Laughing and crying
It seems like a joke
Like a game you're not playing
With the clear of the smoke
Reaching for help
Needing a hand
Can't even try
To sit
Or to stand
Falling back down
Breaths become weaker
You're starting to drift
Drift even deeper
Hopsital visit
At four in the 'mourn
Heart it seems broken
Yes, heart it seems torn
Parents-awake!
Daughter is dying...
She's left in a heap
On the floor crying
Carted away-
Strapped to a bed
'You're luck you're still-
Alive and not dead! '
But, it seems like a play
It just doesn't seem real
Yet, it's this pulse that they want
It's this life that they steal
Vials of blood
They seem to take
As smiles and sanity
You continue to fake
Grinning through tears
You try to hide
All of the pain
You hold onto your pride
Regurgitation
Takes over now
Out with the bottle;
Out with it somehow
'Everything will be okay-'
You hear in your sleep
You hear them say
But, then you are choking
And, dreaming and done
And, there just simply is no way
That it's these pills that have won
When you awake
When you come to
The pills are now gone
And, you are once again you
And, the pain it subsides
For merely one day
As you fall to your knees
And you begin to pray
You thank the lord
You're still alive
And, you let out a breath
And, you let out a sigh
As you finally see
You finally realize
That it just simply was not
Your time to die.

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As I Sit Here and Rot

I cannot stop these cravings
I just really want to shoot it
Oh, yes, I know the truth
Oh yes I fu*king blew it

I'm not sure where to turn
Or how to possbily hide it
I'm completely addicted now
And, I need not deny it

Everything has paused
It's like life has suddenly stopped
And I'm stuck craving this sh*t
As I sit here and rot

I cannot shake these feelings
Of being out of control
I cannot seem to retain
All that the Devil stole

I'm frightened now,
You son of a bitch!
Oh God, how I'm pained...
JESUS CHRIST, how I itch!

My skin it is throbbing
My heart it beats slow
Yet, I feel as if I'm on fire
As if I could explode!

Go away-
Stop invading my mind PLEASE
I run and I hide
But, you always seem to find me!

You are there all the time
Day in through the night
This must be the battle
And, I am losing this fight!

Yet, I do not give in
Or at least I won't give up NOW
But, I'm heading straight for danger
If I don't GET UP NOW!

You are warping my thoughts
You are fu*king with my vision
With all your sick fine-tuning
And, excellent precision

It isn't over, though
And, I will continue to fight
On I will continue
Because, for me-I know what is right!

I'll fight for those people
That say that they care
And, I'll kill all the useless
Those who did dare

Dared to help add to
This Lost Posioned Soul
Dared to be heartless
And, apathetic and cold

It is my turn now
To be the thief
And, they will feel sorrow
And, anger, and grief

So ROT IN PIECES
AS YOU DO DROP DEAD
It's over now-
Why, I've taken your head!

I've won, I'm clean
I'm fresh, I'm new
And, you're dead, you're ugly
You're gone
You're you.

Yes, YOU.

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Transfixed.

I lay in a coffin
Rest my eyes, as I close the lid
Now finally of
-This sorrow, I now rid.

As my body grows limp
And, my breaths start to lessen
A gun slides in my mouth
As I pull the trigger of this wesson

Spewing through the air;
Blood surely splatters
The sound is so raw-
It's mixed with organic matter

The brain; it flatlines.
As does the heart
Farewell to the soul;
Was there even one from the start?

Peaceful and rested
Now I shall seem
Lost in death's trance
Tossed within the dream

Eyes now left nothing-
But, a blank lifeless stare.
Donned in all black.
Peace now fills the air

Waving goodbye
From a place deep within
No longer convinced
This suicide is a sin

Empty and dead
Yes, dead to the core.
I dreamed of this vision.
Yes, I dreamt it before

Now in my death
I find solace and peace
I find my soul at ease
As I now lay deceased.

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Color Blind

There is a world I search for
A world I try to find
I'm searching for a world
A world that's color blind

Where race, it has no meaning
Where skin it does not show
Where people learn acceptance
Is a world I'd love to know

Where I can see your soul
When I look into your face
Without the focus directed
On what we name the race

Where beauty defines itself
In an array of many shades
Where the people join together
And the colors start to fade

Where the shades they lose their value
And more importance then is placed
On qualities more relevant
Something beyond race!

No more hate! -I'm begging...
Let no more cruelty reign!
Stop the faces soaring
In an ocean filled with pain!

Race will have no baring
On what we do and say
And, people stop the caring
On the colors we display

Where is this place I search for?
I search, I hunt, I plead
Where is this place I long for?
I cry, I fall, I bleed!

Because, the spirit inside matters
The soul that should shine bright-
For this to shine right through
I know that we must fight

Until the very end
We'll fight 'till the last breath
To stop the hate from spreading
We must fight 'till nothing is left!

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Manic Depression, and Opium.

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My Bizarre Reality

It's Getting Ugly

Beautifully Strung

Just a Horror Picture

Have You Ever Been To Hell?

Make Luv 2 Tha Dead

The Book Slams Shut

The House of Broken Souls

The Junkie's Prayer

The Dark Inside of Me

Potassium is an Essential Nutrient!

We Are One-We Suffer Together

The Curtain Closes

Everybody Is Broken

The Missing Puzzle Piece

The Credit's Song

The Great OD

As I Sit Here and Rot

Transfixed.

Color Blind

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