Blinded By Shades Of Gray
Sometimes I feel confused and like my heart is broke.
Sometimes I think I'll find inner peace with smoke-
As I inhale the poisons and then exhale them away…
Sometimes I don't know why I think that way-
I guess because I'm blinded by shades of gray-
As I blindly try to find my way...
Sometimes I fly so high-
But the problems are still there, I cant deny-
Because eventually, I have to come back down to reality,
And that's one thing, From which drugs can never permanently set you free...
Sometimes I don't know why
I think that way-
I guess because I'm blinded by shades of gray-
As I blindly try to find my way...
Sometimes I think I'll find my answers,
At the bottom of a glass and I'll try to drink my problems away-
As the world around me blurs-
With bitter-sweet intoxication...
Sometimes I don't know why I think that way-
I guess its just my sometimes foolish imagination-
As I blindly try to find my way...
Sometimes I like to feel pain on the outside-
To mask the pain on the inside…
Sometimes I'll cut my wrists-
Sometimes longing just to end the pain and darkness-
With all this suffering inside-
Thinking that suicide,
Would be okay-
Hoping to bleed to death and fade into oblivion…
Sometimes I don't know why I think that way-
I guess because I'm blinded by shades of gray-
While I feel like the world is a place, Not worth living in-
In which I blindly try to find my way...
I hope its not to late,
To escape
This dark fate-
But for now, I guess I'll just have to wait-
As I long to escape the pain-
To never have to face it again...
But for now, I'll just take my medicine-
To help me forget this dark world, I'm living in...
poem by Philip Alarie
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Better By You Better Than Me
You could find a way to ease my passion
You listen to the blood flow in my veins
You hear the teaching of the wind
Tell her why Im alive within
I cant find the words
My mind is dead
Its better by you better than me
Guess youll have to tell her how I tried
To speak up thoughts Ive held so inside
Tell her now I got to go
Out in the streets and down the shore
Tell her the worlds not much living for
Its better by you better than me
Everybody
Everybody knows
Everybody
Everybody knows
Better by you better than me
You can tell what I want it to be
You can say what I only can see
Its better by you better than me
Guess Ill have to change my way of living
Dont wanna really know the way I feel
Guess Ill learn to fight and kill
Tell her not to wait until
Theyll find my blood upon her windowsill
Its better by you better than me
Everybody
Everybody knows
Everybody
Everybody knows
Better by you better than me
You can say what I only can see
You can tell what I want it to be
Its better by you better than me
Better by you better than me
You can tell what I want it to be
You can say way all they can see
Better by you better than me
song performed by by Judas Priest
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Finding My Peace
I got to find my peace so I cut to ease the pain,
Escaping the life I'm living, escaping a life of vain,
Quieting the cries, as my eyes let free its rain,
Body becomes weak and tired, as my strength I try to gain,
I want to find my peace, some peace of any kind,
Needle penetrates my skin, but to the damage I am blind,
So high up off these drugs, so high up in my mind,
Guess I'll just keep on using, until my peace I someday find,
I need to find my peace, so I drink the stress away,
Now so intoxicated, but it's only a temporary state,
I'm in a better place, so I guess it makes it okay,
But I still haven't found my peace, so I'll try another way,
I think I've found my peace, in a place that's rather odd,
No needles, no bleeding, no cutting, just prayer for His approval nod,
I think I've found my peace, and to my better half I'll prod,
Because I know I've found my peace, and I found it with myself and God,
poem by Niakeva Thomas
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Greener Pastures
Youre always tellin me to go out more
Go ahead, get out and see the world
But then I think, why should i
Id rather stay home and cry
I never thought that I could be the other
The other way like the other ones
Let me open wide, let you see inside
And then you might agree
Would you say they find me unstable
cause they see me act a little bit different
But I know my way to greener pastures and
Think about it, wont you think it over
Please
Without you I can move
I can stretch my arms out, I can feel it
And when Im in my room alone I feel good
Because I dont have to deal with you or the outside world
Would you say they find me unstable
cause they see me act a little bit different
But I know my way to greener pastures and
Think about it, wont you think it over
Please
I guess Ill get over it
Ooh - I guess Ill get over it
I guess Ill get over it
I guess Ill get over it
Would you say they find me unstable
cause they see me act a little bit different
But I know my way through greener pastures
Would you say they find me unstable
cause they see me act a little bit different
But I know my way through greener pastures
Would you say they find me unstable
Cause they see me act a little bit different
But I know my way through greener pastures
Greener pastures
See me act a little bit different
But I know my way through greener pastures
song performed by by Gwen Stefani
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Suicide Lane
Suffering every moment that I'm awake and not asleep
Its the only way to get away from the things that make me weep
What I feel is something beyond sorrow
I keep finding myself dreading tomorrow
Then I find myself on Suicide Lane
While trying to figure out who is to blame
I feel worthless, scared and at the same time lost
I will give anything to not feel this way no matter the cost
But the coward in me keeps me from self-annihilation
I guess for now I have to live with my situation
I'm not getting any better dealing with the pain
I know I will find myself on suicide lane again
But if the pain and darkness continues to exist
Then suicide will become harder to resist
So for now I will find the strength to endure
Why praying that finding happiness doesn't become more obscure
poem by FilledWithFearandDoubt NotAvailable
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I Dont Wanna Know
Well you followed me this far
Did you find out whats inside
Can you tell me what Im doing
Is it something I should hide
I dont know for sure
I dont wanna find out what I left there for
Im not scared and Im not lonely
Saving all my money or my breath
Im not looking for an answer
Or anyone to second guess no
You told me all your secrets
And I filled you up with lies
Now Im living honestly
Because I said goodbye
I cant go home anymore
I dont wanna find out what I left there for
Im not scared and Im not lonely
Saving all my money or my breath
Im not looking for an answer
Im not asking anyone to second guess
I was losing all my senses
I was losing all control
It was getting so offensive
Now you want me back for more
And I just wont go
If you think you know the answers
Youve got a lot of gall
Cause it gives you satisfaction
Knowing nothing at all
I dont care anymore
And I dont wanna find out what I left there for
What I left there for
Im not scared and Im not lonely
Saving all my money or my breath
Im not looking for an answer
Im not asking anyone to take a second guess no
Im not scared and Im not lonely
Saving all my money or my breath yeah
Im not looking for an answer
Im not asking anyone to take a second guess no
Take a second guess yeah
Take a second guess yeah
(hey)
Take a second guess yeah
(hey)
Take a second guess yeah
Take a second guess
(I cant talk to you)
Take a second guess
(yeah, yeah I know)
Take a second guess
(well I gotta go okay)
Take a second guess
Take a second guess
(over one billion served)
Take a second guess
Oh yeah
song performed by by Indigo Girls
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Love Songs
She doesnt know what shes done
Little one doesnt know when to stop
Love must find her
Love must find her a way
She doesnt know what hes thinking
She only knows how he behaves
Love must find him
Love must find him a way
I reckon I must be just an old softy
cause I still believe in love
I think the best is yet to come
cause where Im from is also where Im going
And in the time that it takes to sing this song
I hope you can see for yourself
Love must find you
Love must find you a way
I reckon I must be just an old softy
cause I still believe in love
I think the best is yet to come
cause where Im from is also where Im going
And in the time that it takes to sing you this song
I think I can see for myself
Love has found me
Love has found me a way (oh, love has surely found a way)
Never did I feel like this before
Never was I so confused
I dont know if Im up or down
I guess Ive got nothing to lose
Never did I feel so good before
Guess I might as well hold onto a feeling
It feels so fine
As long as its on my mind
What a blue monday talk about lonely
Dont look back dont look down
Dont know how I made it through
I guess its got something to do with you
Never was I so in love before
The world is like a collage
Yes, and the only thing I can see clearly
Is the slow steady glow of love in her eyes
Talking about the slow steady glow of love in her eyes
song performed by by James Taylor
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Turn Away
I guess you what its all about
All the answers seem so clear to you
You know just exactly what do you want to do
And never allow a feeling of doubt
I guess you see where your road can lead
And all the pain that you have in a store
For now you have chosen to look every door
And find on your own what you think you need
(*) turn away, find a way your own
Ill be there waiting here to say
Turn away, find a way your own
Ill still be calling your name
And if tried to show you how
Tomorrow is never like yesterday
Would you change your mind and see things my way
Or are you afraid that Ill bring you down?
Repeat (*) four times
song performed by by Carpenters
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What Goes Around
I have a peace of mind,
That took a while for me to find.
When I was there for you...
You could care less,
About that mess I was going through.
In fact you even told me,
'Keep strong and stay up! '
You even insisted,
what I 'had' experienced
Was easy enough...
For me to dismiss!
And I should take my medicine,
With shut and silent lips.
And now that you have lost,
All that you have 'owned'.
You believe you can come to me
With your sighs, groans and moans.
But you don't realize,
The many years I did suffering
Alone!
With no one to see or hear my cries,
Shown!
Back up!
Guess what?
I have a peace of mind,
I struggled in time to find!
Back up!
Guess what?
I don't wish to be rude.
Neither disrespectful or crude.
But you've made your own decisions...
As you did!
With your attempts to endorse me
As the neighborhood fool!
However...
I am not going to be that cruel to you.
Back up!
Guess what?
I already know...
What goes around,
Comes around!
And I can see,
You are providing me,
Personal living proof!
It's good to know...
You value 'something'
Connected to truth!
But back up!
Guess what?
I could be nasty.
But like you...
That is not what I choose to do!
poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
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I Dont Believe In Love
I awoke on impact
Under surveillance from the camera eye
Searching high and low
The criminal mind found at the scene of the crime
Handcuffed and blind, I didnt do it
She said she loved me
I guess I never knew
But do we ever, ever really know?
She said shed meet me on the other side
But I knew right then, Id never find her
I dont believe in love
I never have, I never will
I dont believe in love
Its never worth the pain that you feel
No more nightmares, Ive seen them all
From the day I was born, theyve haunted my every move
Every open hands there to push and shove
No time for love it doesnt matter
She made a difference
I guess she had a way
Of making every night seem bright as day
Now I walk in shadows, never see the light
She must have lied cause she never said goodbye
I dont believe in love
I never have, I never will
I dont believe in love
Ill just pretend she never was real
I dont believe in lovev I need to forget her face, I see it still
I dont believe in love
Its never worth the pain that you feel
No chance for contact
Theres no raison detre
My only hope is one day Ill forget
The pain of knowing what can never be
With or without love its all the same to me
I dont believe in love
I never have, I never will
I dont believe in love
Ill just pretend she never was real
I dont believe in love
I need to forget her face, I see it still
I dont believe in love
Its never worth the pain that you feel
song performed by by Queensryche
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I'm Iost
The darkness comes closer
It gets harder to breath
Bad thoughts in my head, won’t go away
The sadness controls me.
I’m drowning in tears
I wish someone would see me
And get me out of here
Get me out of this dark place.
It’s funny now life can suddenly change
Turn everything upside down
From a hopeful girl
To one blinded by her own pain
I can’t find my way
If nobody comes
I guess I’m here to stay
One of the lost ones.
poem by Carlisa Smith
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This Pain Inside Of Me
Looking inside myself
Trying to find out who I really am
But its hard to see
All the pain is tangled up in me
With my broken heart torn into pieces
Feels like I will never know who I am
Tired from the inside out
Ready to give it up
For some reason I can't give up
Something keeps holding me back
Feels like this pain has taken over me
Hurting me all over
Wishing I could escape
Maybe I could finally get away from all my fears that haunts me
Wish that I didn't have to face myself
Cause I'm tired of the mirror
Tired of seeing all the pain and lies that hides underneath
Ready to be set free
But is that possible
Will I ever escape all of this
This pain inside of me
Will I ever have a whole heart
I'm tired of it all
Tired of being broken and in pain
Wish that I could start life all over
Then I would know how to fix all my mistakes
Maybe then I wouldn't be living life this way
Pain, Pain go away
Go away and never come back
Find someone else's soul to feed on
Someone who's life is going great
But pain only hits the ones who has it worse
June 8,2008
poem by Espn Chick
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He'll Never Be
98 degrees he'll never be...(what i used to be to you)
I heard you found yourself a new man
And you say you're as happy as can be
No one can play the game like you can
But does he give you everything you need
But in good time
You're gonna find
You're eyes were closed
And your heart was blind
Now it's too late to change your fate
Cause there's no way he'll ever take my place.
He'll never be
What i used to be to you
So if you wanna play the fool
Then make that move
And do what ya gotta do
You'll never find
A heart that is half as true
I guess you really never knew
But soon you'll see
That he'll never be
What i used to be to you
Does he even have a notion
Of what you really feel inside
Are you going through the motions
Livin' a lie like you're satisfied
But late at night
You realize
There's somethin' tellin' you it just ain't right
It's not the same
Am i to blame
And when you're with him
Do call my name
He'll never be
What i used to be to you
So if you wanna play the fool
Then make that move
And do what ya gotta do
You'll never find
A heart that is half as true
I guess you really never knew
But soon you'll see
That he'll never be
What i used to be to you
I gave you all my love
What were you thinking of
Guess it was just a game
It's all the same to you
Too late to try again
This story's at an end
It's time for movin' on
Now what ya gonna do
He'll never be
What i used to be to you
So if you wanna play the fool
Then make that move
And do what ya gotta do
You'll never find
A heart that is half as true
I guess you really never knew
But soon you'll see
That he'll never be
What i used to be to you
song performed by by 98 Degrees
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Are You Ready?
This place inside my mind, a place I like to hide,
You dont know the chances, what if I should die?
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain,
You dont know the chances, Im so blind, blind, blind.
Another place Ill find, to escape the pain inside,
You dont know the chances, what if I should die?
A place inside my brain, another kind of pain,
You dont know the chances, Im so blind, blind, blind.
Deeper and deeper and deeper as I journey to
Living a life that seems to be a lost reality
That I could never find a way to reach my inner self
Esteem is low, how deep can I go,
In the ground that I lay, if I dont find a way to
Sift through the gray that clouds my mind.
This time I look to see whats between the lines!
I can see, I can see Im going blind. (x12)
Im blind. (x4)
song performed by by Korn
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What It Takes
there goes my old girlfriend
well there's another diamond ring
and all those late night promises
I guess they don't mean a thing
so baby what's the story
did you find another man
is it easy to sleep in the bed that we made
when you don't look back I guess the feelings start to fade away
I used to feel your fire
but now it's cold inside
and you're back on the street
like you didn't miss a beat
song performed by by Aerosmith
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He'll Never Be... (What I Used To Be To You)
I heard you found yourself a new man
And you say you're as happy as can be
No one can play the game like you can
But does he give you everything you need
But in good time
You're gonna find
You're eyes were closed
And your heart was blind
Now it's too late to change your fate
Cause there's no way he'll ever take my place.
He'll never be
What I used to be to you
So if you wanna play the fool
Then make that move
And do what ya gotta do
You'll never find
A heart that is half as true
I guess you really never knew
But soon you'll see
That he'll never be
What I used to be to you
Does he even have a notion
Of what you really feel inside
Are you going through the motions
Livin' a lie like you're satisfied
But late at night
You realize
There's somethin' tellin' you it just ain't right
I's not the same
Am I to blame
And when you're with him
You call my name
He'll never be
What I used to be to you
So if you wanna play the fool
Then make that move
And do what ya gotta do
You'll never find
A heart that is half as true
I guess you really never knew
But soon you'll see
That he'll never be
What I used to be to you
I gave you all my love
What were you thinking of
Guess it was just a game
It's all the same to you
Too late to try again
This story's at an end
It's time for movin' on
Now what ya gonna do
song performed by by 98 Degrees from Revelation
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Gotta Find Me A Better Day
I been gettin lonely, too much these days.
I been gettin lonely, I guess I better get away.
But where can I go thats real? lifes a stage on a ferris wheel.
And the actors are all fighting just to see who gets the lead in the play.
Oh, no, no.
I gotta find me a better day.
Talk about down, I feel so lonely.
Talk about down, Im startin to worry.
Dont really want to be all alone. I cant get along with the chicks at home.
The world just dont seem right, my head is spinnin, and I hate whats goin down.
You gotta find me a better day.
Oh, gotta find me a better day.
Gotta find me a better day.
You gotta find me a better day.
Gotta find me a better day.
Gotta find me a better day.
Gotta find me a better day.
You gotta find me a better day.
Gotta find me a better day.
Gotta find, gotta find,
Gotta find me a better day.
Gotta find, gotta find,
Gotta find,
Gotta find me a better day.
Gotta find me a better day.
Gotta find me a better day.
Gotta find me a better day.
Gotta find me a better day.
(repeat to fade)
song performed by by Grand Funk Railroad
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Right Or Wrong
Don't know
If its right or wrong
To have followed you blindly like this,
But you held my hand
And lead my soul through it,
I guess,
Wherever you take me,
Its gonna lead me home,
My final journey 'home'.
Don't know
If its right or wrong
To feel the way I feel,
But I had a glimpse of your soul
As you held my stare,
And in its reflection
I had seen myself
Pure,
Unadulterated,
Angel like.
I guess,
Whatever you make me feel,
Its real
Not some virtual dream.
Don't know
If its right or wrong, to wonder
if you will remain like this
or like the tides would recede,
or fall off like autumn leaves.
But as of now
You stand in my life,
A pillar of all my strength.
Filling my heart with
Miles and miles of joy.
I guess,
Even if you ever change,
You will ever remain,
My truth, my joy, my pain.
poem by Anjali Kakati
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I Just Wasnt Made For These Times
I keep looking for a place to fit
Where I can speak my mind
Ive been trying hard to find the people
That I wont leave behind
They say I got brains
But they aint doing me no good
I wish they could
Each time things start to happen again
I think I got something good goin for myself
But what goes wrong
Sometimes I feel very sad
Sometimes I feel very sad
(cant find nothin I can put my heart and soul into)
Sometimes I feel very sad
(cant find nothin I can put my heart and soul into)
I guess I just wasnt made for these times
Every time I get the inspiration
To go change things around
No one wants to help me look for places
Where new things might be found
Where can I turn when my fair weather friends cop out
Whats it all about
Each time things start to happen again
I think I got something good goin for myself
But what goes wrong
Sometimes I feel very sad
Sometimes I feel very sad
(cant find nothin I can put my heart and soul into)
Sometimes I feel very sad
(cant find nothin I can put my heart and soul into)
I guess I just wasnt made for these times
I guess I just wasnt made for these times
I guess I just wasnt made for these times
I guess I just wasnt made for these times
I guess I just wasnt made for these times
I guess I just wasnt made for these times
song performed by by Beach Boys
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All In My Heart
(mike geiger/woddy mullis)
I sit here tonight
And look in your eyes
For that old familiar flame
That love that burns
Makes my wolrd turn
Two hearts beating the same
Is it all in my mind
Or is it harder to find
I feel like Im in the dark
I thought it was real
But Im starting to feel
Like it must be all in my heart
Im a fool for believing
But I just keep dreaming
While we just keep drifting apart
Trying to make something
Where theres really nothing
I guess its all in my heart
I keep telling myself
Theres something else
I could do
To find that spark
But wherever it lies
Its not in your eyes
I guess its all in my heart
Im a fool for believing
But I just keep dreaming
While we just keep drifting apart
Trying to make something
Where theres really nothing
I guess its all in my heart
Just trying to make something
Where theres really nothing
I guess its all in my heart
song performed by by John Michael Montgomery
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The Best Thing For Me
Years seemingly like
The Dark Ages vaguely
This heart's sight
In Pain lived blindly
No Hope of redemption
Or of being set free
Much like a prison
Sentenced unjustly
Then sunset years
Have awakened late
You're suddenly here
Isn't this a long wait?
Our lives now entwined
It blends perfectly
And this is what I find
You're the best thing for me!
Inspired by the song of Style Council 'You're The Best Thing'
poem by Cynthia Buhain-Baello
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