My life will never be normal
i live day by day,
wondering if i will ever be normal,
i realize that it is not possible,
every bit of part of me that was taken,
will never be given back,
it like i died everytime i was abused,
my world turned upside down,
i became use to living my life the same,
numb, confused and nobody to turn to,
nights were lonely,
and full of nightmares,
the only way i can excape was to fly,
fly away and never return,
now that i'm older,
just hot wiring a car in my dreams,
just so i can excape the pain and torture,
is a dream come true,
when the nights are suppose to be seen as good,
mine were awasys dark,
i regret even falling asleep,
but it what the body needs,
there are times i lay in bed,
just wondering how my life got this way,
tears run down my face,
anger rushes to the surface,
some selfish punk had their fun,
and left nothing but pain,
it wasn't even fun,
it what they call,
money will keep you quiet,
let me do what i want,
some selfish prick,
who deserve what they get in life,
i'm done blaming myself for what happened in the past,
what happened, happened,
it my life that i have to live now,
it just sucks when guys judge me,
for what happened in my past,
it just don't seem fair,
but it time to stop being the victim,
and start being the survivor!
poem by Mona Martinez
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I Just Wish You Can Understand Me
my body is numb,
i feel dead inside,
i feel like i don't belong,
like i'm a watse of space,
just getting in the way,
i don't want this life,
and yet i can't excape,
what am i living for?
lost for words,
body shaking,
can't stay in the moment,
it's as if somebody pulling me,
and i can't excape,
i can't come out,
i'm trapped in a universe,
that sucks if you ask me,
everybody looking at me,
as if i was the bad one,
i was the vitim,
what did i do wrong?
i tried to speak up,
but i have no say,
i'm dealing with stuff,
that i did not ask for,
did you not see tears down my face,
when you pushing my head towards you,
but you still did it,
you still force me on you,
you didn't care that i was begging,
begging for you to stop,
but you kept making me,
the harder i cry,
the more you would fight,
it made you mad,
when i resisted,
but i was a kid,
i didn't have the strength to fight you off,
i just cried,
i rock myself just to calm down,
it the only way i can get you off of me,
you deal with yourself,
and your lies everybody believe,
you selfish prick,
i was just a child,
how could you do that to me,
and expect me to just forget?
poem by Mona Martinez
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Voice Of A Little Girl
my body is numb,
i feel dead inside,
i feel like i don't belong,
like i'm a watse of space,
just getting in the way,
i don't want this life,
and yet i can't excape,
what am i living for?
lost for words,
body shaking,
can't stay in the moment,
it's as if somebody pulling me,
and i can't excape,
i can't come out,
i'm trapped in a universe,
that sucks if you ask me,
everybody looking at me,
as if i was the bad one,
i was the vitim,
what did i do wrong?
i tried to speak up,
but i have no say,
i'm dealing with stuff,
that i did not ask for,
did you not see tears down my face,
when you pushing my head towards you,
but you still did it,
you still force me on you,
you didn't care that i was begging,
begging for you to stop,
but you kept making me,
the harder i cry,
the more you would fight,
it made you mad,
when i resisted,
but i was a kid,
i didn't have the strength to fight you off,
i just cried,
i rock myself just to calm down,
it the only way i can get you off of me,
you deal with yourself,
and your lies everybody believe,
you selfish prick,
i was just a child,
how could you do that to me,
and expect me to just forget?
poem by Mona Martinez
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I'm Ready For Life
What's wrong with me?
I've never cried so much in my life,
as I have in the past few months.
Is it that I'm growing up,
or simply I've become more emotional
based on everything that's happened this year?
But they're not tears of pain,
the opposite actually.
Everything in my life is changing,
changing for the good,
and I couldn't be happier.
I know that someday,
I'll wake up and realize that
my life is turned upside down,
but until then,
I'll just keep smiling,
keep walking
and I won't look back.
I know my worth,
I know my strengths,
so now I stand here
on my own,
and I truly don't care
who stands beside me,
and who walks away.
If they leave and live in pain,
I can only feel bad for them,
but it's up to them,
to see all that's coming
all life has to offer.
I'm ready for life,
so why aren't you?
I thought it was,
'The older,
The wiser.'
Not,
'The younger,
The wiser.'
So just promise me this,
when you cry,
it's tears of joy,
because of all the great things
life has given you.
poem by Katherine Bryce
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Sorry To A Friend
Sittin on the edge
Looking for songs in a bottle
Talking with strangers who dont know my pain
Blurry eyed and burned out
Choking on more than I can swallow
Crack in a little voice called out my name
She said ~ whatever happened to you,
Its been two years where have you been.
And I guess all my fears were true
The words were all gone the times been too long.
But I deserve to know what happened to my friend
Staring in her face, I see a past that still haunts me
The road where we split up is paved with the things I didnt say
We had wonderful times, but terrible timing
Now just leave her alone, Ill just be in the way
She said whatever happened to you
You took the cowards way out again
And I guess all my fears were true
The words are all gone, the times been too long
But its not too late to say Im sorry to a friend
Im sorry to a friend. sorry to a friend
Like a stone in a stream
Life smoothes all our edges
til we barely make a ripple any more
But those times in my life will live with me forever
But were not the same people that we were before
And Im sorry for the smiles we missed and the times that I blew it
Ive got so much to tell you I dont know where to start
Maybe Ill find a way maybe youll help me do it
cause friends like us should not be apart
And Im sorry to a friend
Well now Im sorry
song performed by by Edwin McCain
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Just Wanting To Be Understood
No one understands
No one comprehends the pain I feel
No one cares
What happens to me
No one cares
How I end up
Anger running so deep inside
I've been hurt on too many times
Pain strikes with every thought
Of how life used to be
Friends and loved ones lost
Relationships once had ignited
Everything in life killed
By one feeling
ANGER
Pain streaks through my veins
As I try to feel what I used to
As I try to imagine
The good old days
When everything was better
When someone actually cared
The pain never leaves
From way back when
Images stuck in my head
Thoughts never said
Life sinks into a hole
No one notices what happened
Disappeared and never returned
Best friends never again
More pain hits
Nothing ever the same
Anger so deep you want to kill
Given the chance you probably will
Hatred, pain, past memories relived
Wondering what is in store
How you hate the life you live
Want to hide
And never return
Die and never be seen
Live a different life than you lead
Get out and roam
You've tried before
Never quite got out that door
Always one more thing to do
Never time for just you
No one ever seems to care
Life was better somewhere else
Death seems so much better
But deep down inside
You know it's no the answer
Get out you scream
To your pain
Leave forever
And come not again
Hatred is the cause of this all
Nothing understood by those who care
They don't seem to know you're there
They hear but don't understand
They see but don't comprehend
Life so simple never repaired
Everything seems so useless there
Killing all around us
Between ourselves
Wanting to get out
Of this world we live
Death seems the answer
Yet never said
Tried so hard but never won
Anger towards ones your supposed to love
No more trust
To him you give
Hurt you one to many times
Permanent was the pain
Bruises from his anger you recieve
More anger you then get
Killing not the answer here
Wishing it was
So you could be free
One more freedom you would get
If he weren't around to hit
Anger can't be released anymore
Trouble is caused to much
Always more pain from it
What to do you do not know
Leaving for good would be so great
Getting out of something so bad
Worse than thousand about to die
poem by Dani Sears
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Look What Has Happened To Me
In the morning when I wake,
And my feet can find the floor,
I stumble down the hall,
And I open up the door,
Then I look into the mirror,
Just like I know you do.
Stopping for a moment,
I can feel my mind go through,
The boundries of time,
Back to a heart without his
Love inside.
I was more than just alone;
I was dying on my own,
Thinking that nothing was ever gonna
Save my life.
Look what has happened to me,
I find it hard to believe.
His love has taken my life
This far, so far....
Looking what has happened to me,
My mind can hardly conceive
What Im beginning to be,
Look what, look what....
When you stop and think it over,
Do you think youre doing well?
Are you getting stronger?
Can you really tell?
If youre truthful with your feelings,
Then you see theres room to grow,
Though you may have found the answer,
There is so much more to know....
More to this life.
You can never stop growing, or youll
Start to die.
I can not survive alone.
I am nothing on my own.
But seeings believing, and if you
Need to see,
Look at me.
Ahhhh....
Look what has happened to me,
I find it hard to believe.
His love has taken my life
This far, so far....
Look what has happened to me,
My mind can hardly conceive.
Look what has happened,
Look what, look what....
Look what has happened to me,
I find it hard to believe.
His love has taken my life
This far, so far....
Look what has happened to me,
My mind can hardly conceive
What Im beginning to be,
Look what, look what....
Look what has happened to me, (look what has happened to me,)
I find it hard to believe.
His love has taken my life
This far, so far....
Look what has happened to me,
My mind can hardly conceive
What Im beginning to be,
Look what, look what....
song performed by by Amy Grant
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Get A Life
Ive been wondering whats eating at your head?
The cheap way you handle things, the slander that you spread.
Making misery is the way you spend your time.
I think its safe to say when it comes to truth youre blind
Whatever happened is over now for you.
With you theres nothing, that you wouldnt do.
Nothing you wouldnt do.
Now its time to get a life, you gotta get a life.
Now its time to get a life, you gotta get a life, gotta get a life.
This is my life
The faces that you show have everyone concerned.
But if they turn their backs to you, trust in you,
Theyll learn.
Whatever happened is over now for you.
With you theres nothing, that you wouldnt do.
Nothing you wouldnt do.
Now its time to get a life, you gotta get a life.
Now its time to get a life, you gotta get a life, gotta get a life.
This is my life
Whatever happened is over now for you.
With you theres nothing, that you wouldnt do.
Nothing you wouldnt do.
Now its time to get a life, you gotta get a life.
Now its time to get a life, you gotta get a life, gotta get a life.
This is my life
song performed by by Queensryche
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The Husband And Wife
What ever happened to the husband and wife
What ever happened to love
What ever happened to the dreams they thought right
That they both thought so much of
What ever happened to the holding of hands
Or the whispers of secrets to keep
Did it somehow slip away with the time
Is it somewhere still hidden beneath
What ever happened to the words I do
Replaced now with words of cruel
Does somehow it still linger on
Is love only lost and confused
What ever happened to the romance
And the love that was in each breath we took
Must somehow be forgotten now
Was this in the chances we took
What ever happened to the husband and wife
What ever happened to love
What will now happen to the rest of our lives
For love, was it overlooked
What will now happen to the dreams we once had
When the world was right at our feet
Is love somehow still hidden somewhere
Or is this the way it must be
There once was a time when it meant so much more
When love walked with us in life
What ever happened to the love in our hearts
What happened to the husband and wife.
copyright 2004 Bill Simmons
aka [email protected]
poem by Bill Simmons
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Life For Rent
I haven't ever really found a place that I call home
I never stick around quite long enough to make it
I apologize that once again I'm not in love
But it's not as if I mind
that your heart ain't exactly breaking
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
I've always thought
that I would love to live by the sea
To travel the world alone
and live more simply
I have no idea what's happened to that dream
As there's really nothing left here to stop me
It's just a thought, only a thought
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
While my heart is a shield and I won't let it down
While I am so afraid to fail so I won't even try
Well how can I say I'm alive
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
But if my life is for rent and I don't learn to buy
Well I deserve nothing more than I get
Cos nothing I have is truly mine
Coz nothing I have is truly mine,
Coz nothing I have is truly mine,
Coz nothing I have is truly mine.
song performed by by Dido
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Live Again
Feeling Nothing
Lonely Empty
You try to walk away but you fall
You cannot understand what's this for
In this world I see it more
The pain you feel that I ignore
You see my face and then you see
nothin'
Confused. you turn and live on
I turn my face
You're staring back again
Look at yourself and live again
Can't see me. you feel me
Want me. you'll find me
I'll be your everything
Will you call
You'll need more and more
When you fall
In this world I see it more
The pain you feel that I ignore
You see my face and then you see
nothing
Confused. you turn and live on
I turn my face
You're staring back again
Look at yourself and live again
How many times have you looked
At yourself and felt mistreated
How does it feel to know that
This life of yours is real
All of your life you've been led
To believe your nothin'
So look at yourself and start to live
again
You see my face and then you see
nothing
Confused you turn and live on
I turn my face
You're staring back again
Look at yourself and live again
If you don't change you'll be nothin'
So look at yourself and live again
I turn my face
You're staring back again
So look at yourself and live again
song performed by by Sevendust from Animosity
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Lost and Confuse In My Thoughts
i see guys as just wanting one thing,
sex,
it's seem to be all they think about,
and all they want from a girl,
don't know why i continue to punish myself,
i know i don't deserve this,
but at the same time,
i love the high that i get,
maybe that why i'm not relationship materal,
i can't handle being with just one guy,
i need to feel alive in the relationship,
and just having that one that cares for me,
start to feel suffocating at times,
they know all about you,
your good and your bad,
well i even share that much,
at times i feel like i'm living,
two different lives,
one where i be this perfect girlfriend,
nothing bothers me,
i know what i want kind of person,
than the other life is,
i'm anything you like,
personality and all,
i become there dream girl,
transform into what guys like,
the dream world seems so much better than reality,
reality has too many problems,
i hate being this girl,
i feel like a girl that got lost,
when she was trying to find her way through life,
confused, lonely, used,
what more can i add,
this don't feel like living,
but i'm so numb,
i don't even know what to feel,
and yet it's a life, i continue to live,
it feels normal,
how do you learn to love,
when feeling certain emotions feel wrong,
i feel like i'm broken,
and nobody can put me back together.
poem by Mona Martinez
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Lıfe's A *Itch
Feelin blue
What the hell happened to you
Full of hate
Nothin' else left on your plate
Lovin' you
How could this life be so damn cruel
Chorus
You wanna hate me all day long
You can't think straight, you got it so wrong
Dying, lyin' in all of your pain
Yet you keep on feeding it again and again
You need to give it a rest someday
Babe your so blue it just blows us all away
Life's a *itch
Gotta scratch every itch
Thats ok
Gotta live for everyday
It's so true
Sad it can't just happen for you
Chorus
Really sad
Why you wanna live a life so mad
Goin' down
Your whole life is lost and you're bound
To a dream
Imagine things that never happened
poem by Talile Ali
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I'm trying to be open, but the past keep creeping in
i'm only human,
don't get mad,
i don't feel normal,
but i'm doing the best i can,
what you want is this perfect girl,
i don't think i will ever be her,
i'm a girl who numb her feeling,
just so i won't have to feel the pain,
the problem is not really you,
nor is it me,
i was delt a bad hand,
in this thing we call life,
i want to be what you see in me,
it just hard,
when my feelings over take my mind,
i freeze up,
but it's hiding behind my smile,
i don't let you see,
becuz i'm afraid that if i do,
you won't look at me,
the way you have been,
that look you get in your eyes,
is what makes me want to be a better person,
you see, what i'm too blind to see,
and yet, i'm worried that you might judge,
judge me for a past, i had no control over,
it makes me sick to think,
a grown guy can do that to a child,
turn them into their sex puppet,
it makes me sick just thinking about it,
but in my eyes i'm looking at you,
as if you are my abuser,
you are nothing like him,
and yet i'm so afraid to let you in,
let you get close,
i tell myself things that are not true,
just so i have a way out,
a way out of feeling the thing from the past,
but no matter what,
i'm pulled back into your charm,
who can resist?
i love your personality,
but it's what triggering my past memories,
i feel like i'm not normal,
becuz i'm afraid of anything sexual,
it shouldn't have to be this way,
but sadly it is,
i guess all i can say is,
i'm only human,
i don't always have to be perfect,
i can only be me,
it wasn't my fault,
what happened in my past,
all i can do is move on and learn.
poem by Mona Martinez
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Ouad El Habib
Why did you bring us here and left us that day
And you kept saying why do you have this pain
While in the past past time
I always thought of you
What happened to me and kept me in my suffering
Why this suffering why?
What happened to me and kept me in my pain.
Oh my fire, you told me from this day nothing came up
And you must help me surviving this day.
What happened to me oh my soul, my heart, my fire.
This day, he told me do not hurt me and i visit
Him in the day of judgement
song performed by by Yello
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Ouad El Habib
Why did you bring us here and left us that day
And you kept saying why do you have this pain
While in the past past time
I always thought of you
What happened to me and kept me in my suffering
Why this suffering why?
What happened to me and kept me in my pain.
Oh my fire, you told me from this day nothing came up
And you must help me surviving this day.
What happened to me oh my soul, my heart, my fire.
This day, he told me do not hurt me and i visit
Him in the day of judgement
song performed by by Yello
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Tears
here i sit with tears in my eyes
asking myself what happened
and wondering why.
my heart is broken
and i feel empty inside
what did i do
why did you lie.
you said you loved me
and that wasn't true
you just used me as you intended to.
so many tears i have shed
and loosing my love you will dread.
for a love like mine is hard to find.
i had loved you body and soul
and each day, more love would unfold.
i'll pick myself up and get back on track
and i'll forget you, there'll be no turning back.
so live your life as you think you should
i'll do better, i know i could.
these are the only tears
from me you will see.
because from this day forward
' i'll be free '.
poem by Louis Rams
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Nobody Can Save Me, But Myself
at times i feel alone,
like nobody will understand me,
the way i feel,
what i'm experiencing,
and it true,
my past is my past,
the memeries are mine,
i can explain all i want,
they will never truely know,
that pain i have suffered,
the nightmares i have at night,
feeling numb most of the time,
just to not feel the pain,
the deep pain inside,
that is like a knife cutting inside,
without a visable scar,
only what you see,
sometimes you feel crazy,
like nobody will ever understand,
but it only becuz i block ppl out,
block them out from getting close,
i feel like if they only knew,
what i live through day after day,
they will see me as a problem,
to have to deal with,
i'm not just a problem,
i'm a human being,
who gotten lost along the way,
and need to find my way back,
sometimes it hard,
i stay wondering in the past,
as if it where i belong,
than out of nowhere,
i'm back in the present,
trying to pick up where i have left off,
wheather it was a day, week, month, or year,
ppl don't even realize i'm gone,
i walk around pretending to be happy,
and like nothing is going on,
but deep down i'm a mess,
falling down a black hole,
and the only person that can save me,
is myself.
poem by Mona Martinez
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Equal Justice
What happened to equal justice?
What happened to being fair?
Im sitting here wondering if you people even care.
We both did wrong, but all he gets is a slap on the wrist, while I'm sitting here in this dark cell shivering from the mist.
What happened to equal justice?
What happened to my rights?
He got off without even putting up a fight.
Is it the color of my skin, or the gender that I took?
He got off without even a second look.
poem by Octavia Wilson
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It Happened
(four shots)
Noooooooo!
It happened at a time of my life when i least expected,
It happened at a time of my life when i least expected,
I don't even remember how it happened,
I don't even remember the day it happened.
But it happened,
Yes, it happened,
Ooh, it happened,
And i know there's no return, no way.
song performed by by Yoko Ono
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It Happened
(four shots)
Noooooooo!
It happened at a time of my life when i least expected,
It happened at a time of my life when i least expected,
I don't even remember how it happened,
I don't even remember the day it happened.
But it happened,
Yes, it happened,
Ooh, it happened,
And i know there's no return, no way.
song performed by by Yoko Ono
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