Knowing This Admission
I alone had to face my dysfunctions.
And to see them for what they were.
I was not going to live all of my life...
Pretending my experiences,
Did not rip my heart apart or hurt.
I began to express my emotions,
With a knowing of this admission...
Came from an inner strength,
And not a submission to weakness.
I would condense to convince,
Myself.
I could not hold my head up high,
If I kept my sorrows gone denied.
I alone had to face my dysfunctions.
And to see them for what they were.
I was not going to live all of my life...
Pretending my experiences,
Did not rip my heart apart or hurt.
I have healed from several illnesses,
None of which I needed to embrace.
I forced myself to analyze by looking inside...
To replace a charade,
That grew tired of masquerade.
I alone had to face my dysfunctions...
With a forgiveness I wanted to admit.
I did not want to live my life,
Condoning unhappiness.
I could not hold my head up high,
If I kept my sorrows gone denied.
And this,
After getting over it...
Has allowed me to increase,
My identity with a peace released!
And not an approval have I sought to seek,
From anyone who has yet to do what I have done!
poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
Submitted by Poetry Lover
Vote! | Copy!
Related quotes
Shout It
Not on this stage to take up space I'm here to communicate face to face
I'll hold my head up high and shout it look you in the eye and shout it
hold my head up high shout it look you in the eye and shout it
criticized for speaking out I guess you don't know what we're about
so I'll hold my head up high and shout its look you in the eye shout it
hold my head up high shout it look you in the eye and shout it
we're just some friends who want to be heard through out music we'll spread our word
trying our best to figure what life is about seeing the good makes me want to shout
shout it there's nothing wrong with saying my part the message I cry is from the heart
won't change my ideas just to please you you've built the walls we're breaking through
song performed by by Youth Of Today
Submitted by Lucian Velea
Vote! | Copy!
Hold On To Your Dream
In life we have our pains and sorrows
Face mountains we think we can't climb
Nothing can there's always tomorrow
You feel like giving up, you say you're out of luck
But then you hear a voice in your mind
Telling you to
Hold on to your dream
Cause they're always worth having
Hold on to your dream
Like a father to his son
Don't let anyone ever steal your joy from you
Hold on to your dream
till the day that life is said and done
This world is filled peaks and valleys
With rivers we think we can't cross
To busy keeping sorrows telling
You say you're at you're in
You say you never win
But then a light comes on in your mind
Till you
Hold on to your dream
Cause they're always worth having
Hold on to your dream
Like a father to his son
Don't let anyone ever steal your joy from you
Hold on to your dream
Until the day that life is said and done
If you wanna hold on to something
You better hold on to your dreams
If you want to hold on to something
You've gotta hold to your love
To your love
So if they try to burst your bubble
It's cons they haven't done em all
And when you feel you are in trouble
Hold your head up high and feel your heart inside
And know that you are never alone
Just as long as you
Hold on to your dream
Cause they're always worth having
Hold on to your dream
Like a father to his son
Don't let anyone ever steal your joy from you
Hold on to your dream
till the day that life is said and done
Hold on to your dream
Cause they're always worth having
Hold on to your dream
Like a mother to her child
Don't let anyone ever steal your dreams from you
Hold on to your dream
And do your best to always wear a smile
Hold on to your dream
song performed by by Stevie Wonder
Submitted by Lucian Velea
Vote! | Copy!
Whispers Heard
The weird one,
Out.
An escapee,
From a life deemed scarred...
By the markings of dysfunctions.
Labellings endured but removed.
Bold, brave...
And,
Often rude.
Often moody and with attitude.
The weird one,
Out.
No longer enslaved,
By limited mentalities.
Too goal oriented.
And...
With identity.
The weird one,
Out.
Never to look back,
To retrace haunting distractions.
Or again to face...
Those flaunting their disgraces,
In a buffooning pride to dignify...
Stereotypical images to imitate,
Interpretations that disrespect one's heritage.
The weird one,
Out.
An escapee,
From a life deemed scarred...
By the markings of dysfunctions.
And with a pace motivated,
By the whispers heard...
From encouraging ancestors.
poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
Submitted by Poetry Lover
Vote! | Copy!
Live Or Die
Take one breath
One fundamental sign of life
Dont look back, dont analyze
The tears that you cry
Only the strong survive
The silent sacrifice
And i, I will be your heart of steel
But power has a price
Aint it time that you believe in someone
Aint it wrong to let the years go by
Standing face to face forever
Live or die
(chorus)
Hold me like a child
Im not alive until you do
What you hold in your hand is a miracle
And its dead if I dont have you
Hold me like a child
Swear you never let go
Youre the eye of the storm
The reason I laugh or cry
Live or die
I will stay with you
Take one breath
One fundamental sign of life
No bad blood
No pain can make you draw the knife
We got a world of trouble
But I will never change
And even if we fall tomorrow
We will rise again
Now is the time we show each other
These are the words I kept inside
Standing face to face forever
Live of die
(chorus)
Live or die
I will stay, with you
Take one breath
One fundamental sign of life
Dont look back
We love each other live or die
Hold me like a child
Im not alive until you do
Live or die
I will stay with you
Take one breath
One fundamental sign of life
Dont look back
We love each other live or die
Hold me like a child
song performed by by Bee Gees
Submitted by Lucian Velea
Vote! | Copy!
Im sick and tired(written on August 16,2008)
Im sick of pretending im happy
Im tired of pretending i care
all this pain ive been put through
Is too much for me to bare
Im sick of pretending i love life
im tired of living this lie
fed up with trying to hide my hurt
I just want to sit down and cry
Im sick of pretending i hate you
Imtired of pretending to know
The reasons why you left me
Oh why did you have to go
Im sick of trying
Im tired of crying
Yeah im smiling
But inside im dying
poem by Elizabeth Burnworth
Submitted by Poetry Lover
Vote! | Copy!
Happy To Ignore Those Who Do Not Have A Clue
Some years ago,
I was told by someone...
Lacking 'self' consciousness,
That my adding an 'S' to my name...
Did nothing for my own identity!
As if 'they' had annointed me with awareness.
And they had a backyard that was weed free!
Not only did I have 'identity'...
I knew every aspect of 'who' I was.
Still do!
And 'who' I was meant on Earth to be.
Unconfused and clear...
I did not express my best by seeking approval.
If it came...
That was fine.
But I was also fine without it!
I seek life to live it.
Not to become confined in restrictions and limits.
Why is it that some people believe,
They can live someone's life...
Better than the one,
Who has proven they have no problem...
Doing that on their own?
And happy to ignore those,
Who do not have a clue...
What it is they should do while in the midst,
Of pretending every movement they do fits.
And excusing their own embarrassments.
poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
Submitted by Poetry Lover
Vote! | Copy!
Anymore
I can't hide the way I feel
About you...
Anymore
I can't hold the hurt inside
Keep the pain out of my eyes
Anymore
My tears no longer waiting
My resistance ain't that strong
My mind keeps recreating
A life with you alone
And I'm tired of pretending
That I don't love you anymore
Let me make one last appeal
To show you how I feel
About you...
'Cause there's no one else I swear
Holds a candle anywhere next to you
My heart can't take the beating
Not having you to hold
A small voice keeps repeating
Deep inside my soul
It says "I can't keep pretending...
I don't love you anymore."
I've got to take the chance
Or let it pass by
If I expect to get on with my life
My tears no longer waiting
Oh, my resistance ain't that strong
My mind keeps recreating
A life with you alone
And I'm tired of pretending
I don't love you anymore
Anymore...
Anymore
song performed by by Travis Tritt
Submitted by Lucian Velea
Vote! | Copy!
I’m Pretending
I’m pretending nothing happened,
that we are still together.
I’m pretending you never
went away with someone new.
I’m pretending we are still a couple,
that you are still nearby.
I’m pretending,
pretending
I am still with you.
I’m pretending that our love
still shines brightly.
I’m pretending that you still care
and lying to myself each day.
I’m pretending that you just stepped out
and that you are not far away.
I’m pretending,
pretending
I am still with you.
I’m pretending it always summer
and that winter never comes.
I’m pretending life is as it was
and I’m forever with you.
I’m pretending you are with me
and not in the arms of someone new.
I’m pretending that I am smiling
and that I’m not feeling blue.
I’m pretending,
pretending
I am still with you.
20 April 2009
poem by David Harris
Submitted by Poetry Lover
Vote! | Copy!
To Learn and Comprehend From Beginning to End
From whom do you seek approval,
To meet and greet what pleases you?
What satisfaction can another supply,
To a life you live with choices to apply.
From whom do you seek,
A decision to live?
When all of us have different testaments...
As life presents us our own experiences.
To learn and comprehend from beginning to end.
poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
Submitted by Poetry Lover
Vote! | Copy!
The Worlds A Masquerade
Skip scarbrough
Can this world be a masquerade
Are you really what we see on the outside
And hidin what what you really are on the inside
Pretending that youre something youre really not
Whole world is a masquerade
Everybody, everybody wears another face
Cant you see what you really are
Pretending that you want the world to be a better place,
Fightin, makin war on your fellow man
So why wear this face
That makes it seem everythings so great
Whole world is a masquerade
Everybody, everybody wears another face
song performed by by Earth Wind And Fire
Submitted by Lucian Velea
Vote! | Copy!
Awe Of Life
Focus on life, on all of life, your good dreams, the feelings, aliveness, the sublimeness, the beauty, love, meaning, wonder, such alive real dreams are life of life, they are you, more than you as well as ahead of you, making real your share of paradise now. Actively be with them, put into meaning, into understanding, into discernment the painful, hurt, dark, complex emotions, feelings while you hold onto your good memories, experiences, feelings, your joyous experiences are the digestive enzymes of the negative. One is light the other is substance. You only grow, you only get stronger, only wiser, when you face both. That is how the good is released into this world; that is how you truly stand in this dwelling place from your soul. This is the only way this world as well as your next world is made real, more humane, more fulfilling to our real many deep and not so deep desires, more spiritual. I do not have to tell you what happens when you become one-sided.
poem by Michael Kavuoti
Submitted by Poetry Lover
Vote! | Copy!
My Mama Said
Tried to sneak out without saying
With my loudest record playing
Ooh, my mama said, look at this, you havent done your bed
My mama said, thats a thing that you should do instead
Then I did what she had told me
Dying for my friend to hold me
Ooh, my mama said, try and get one thing into your head
My mama said, pa and me, we give you room and bed
How I wanna live my life
Wanna live my life
La-la-la, la-la-la, life
In the morning she said listen
Ooh, I felt like in a prison
Yeah, my mama said, i know youve been out again with fred
(my mama said)
My mama said, dont you lie, your cheeks are blushing red
(my mama said)
Oh I wanna live my life
Wanna live my life
La-la-la, la-la-la, life
I said I can live without him
How I wish you wouldnt doubt him
Ooh, my mama said, if you want to hurt me go ahead
(my mama said)
My mama said, i suppose youd rather see me dead
(my mama said)
Oh I wanna live my life
Wanna live my life
La-la-la, la-la-la, life
La-la-la, la-la-la, life
La-la-la, la-la-la, life
La-la-la, la-la-la, life
(fade)
song performed by by ABBA
Submitted by Lucian Velea
Vote! | Copy!
Pretending
I was right the first time
But I outguessed myself
You sympathized so sweetly
When you sent me to hell
What have I got to complain for
Had to throw myself overboard
Like to see that my dues are paid
Its just the way I was made
And when I cry, I was burning inside
Youre out there pretending
And though I lie, I had nothing to hide
Youre the one whos pretending
I live in anticipation
Things that never occurred
Turned my back to the loving ones
On the strength of your word
Whats the answer Im looking for
You mix your meanings with metaphors
Glass bricks and a ten foot wall
You really dont care at all
And when I came to relieve all the pain
You were somewhere pretending
And Im still here, and its still just as clear
That youre only pretending
I believe in believing
And I hope that theres still hope for me
cause I need to be needing
And youre free to be free as you please
But Im not the kind
Who can live with life
And I never could
cause Im just no good at pretending
Whats the truth after all this time
Is it your perception or is it mine
Sometimes youre better off alone
You cant get blood from a stone
And while you cry, Ill be laughing inside
cause I know youre pretending
Look me straight in the eye
When I tell you good bye
cause I wont be pretending
You could beg me and fall down on your knees
But youd just be pretending
Maybe someday youll have something to say
And you wont be pretending
song performed by by Utopia
Submitted by Lucian Velea
Vote! | Copy!
Making The Best of Life
I'm only human, can fail like the rest
I've been to the top, and very bottom put through the test,
Should you love me, or should you not?
Am I needed or just sought
Wearing my heart on my sleeve, sharing it it often
Whose lives have been hurt, trying to soften,
Put a smile on the face, of one so broken
Kind words and a smile, a welcome token
This world we live in, so evil and bad
Take your happiness, where it can be had,
I shall think of you as my brother and sister
Can't we all be family, in a world so sinister
I can hurt and i can cry
I can make the best of things, let things brush by,
Don't live your life, by ups and downs
Let your smiles, lift others frowns!
poem by Donna Nimmo
Submitted by Poetry Lover
Vote! | Copy!
Choose to Live Life
IF is more 'is' today than ever.
There is no quiz about it now.
And doubts once allowed are gone.
Believe it.
And become doubt free.
It is there in your face.
With nothing else to replace it.
Wishing it would go away...
Fades with a reality that stays,
Unerased!
With traces of pain...
To frame delusions.
Believe it.
And become doubt free.
Choose to live your life.
Yesterday,
Those easy daydreams came.
Sweetened with weekend escapades.
To leave behind a week,
Of those scheduled committments.
You sought to meet and keep.
Now a seriousness appears.
To reminisce those things done...
As dropping teardrops come to some.
Choose to live your life.
IF is more 'is' today than ever.
There is no quiz about it now.
And doubts once allowed are gone.
One must choose to live life!
No longer can anyone afford to sacrifice time...
To appease the whims of others.
Especially if they are in debate...
Discussing the value of your fate.
Choose to live life...
With a happiness sought without 'things'.
Or a happiness someone promises to bring.
Choose to live life!
Your life!
poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
Submitted by Poetry Lover
Vote! | Copy!
Freedom
so I'm gone close my eyes(my eyes)
and I'm gone live my life(my life)
despite what you think Im'a be free, cause Im'a be me.(x2)
see i aint never think that i would have a situation
where the people around me just envy I must replace them
see I always thought the people that watch me grow
would want to see me blow fa'sho but little did I know
they ain't never really wanna see me smiling.
they couldn't take the fact that I was really shining
and in my heart I knew they was wishing I was stop
cause they don't me to rise and be on top.
and all that jealousy and hate
can be right in front of your face
and it's gone hurt for you to see
but it ain't your fault just let it be
so I'm gone close my eyes
and I'm gone live my life
despite what you think Im'a be free cause Im'a be me.(x2)
See everybody wanna have something to talk about
so they pointing their fingers and always running their mouths.
no matter how you try to satisfy someone else
giving so much of yourself your love
but it's never enough.
the more you give the more want they ain't happy
and they don't see all you do to make em happy
they don't appreciate it till you walk away
but you don't want to hear by now it's too late.
and all that jealousy and hate
can be right in front of your face
and it's gone hurt for you to see
but it ain't your fault just let it be.
so I'm gone close my eyes
and I'm gone live my life
despite what you think Im'a be free cause Im'a be me.(x2)
What they don't understand is that Im'a keep livin my life and surviving
Im'a keep pushing and striving and climbing and grinding
cause aint no time to be cry'n, i've been through alot
witnessed strenght, to carry my weight
and Im'a be ok cause I'm gone live my life my way
you can say what you wanna say,you wont effect the way im living
im worried 'bout being free again
so I'm gone close my eyes
and I'm gone live my life
despite what you think Im'a be free cause Im'a be me.(x2)
song performed by by Ashanti
Submitted by Lucian Velea
Vote! | Copy!
Alankar (Decor) - 13
Freedom is ours to let live, live
Liberty is mine to live or not
So I decide to breathe or not
But He above rules His my life
So is He with my life's strife
Only my sense to sense His knot
And my mind warns, my heart feels
My vision alerts to care my wheels
To choose the good to gain good
To avoid the bad not to brood
An eye third in me that reveals
Freedom so not to act and hurt
Nor spit on oneself to get hurt
Nor even to hurt any to fight
Nor high to die to say right
But to soar leveled joy to spurt
Freedom so to share joy and live
To serve, be served, such to thrive
Freedom not to be a selfish waste
So to be feckless a heedless taste
Freedom is ours to let live, live
poem by Indira Renganathan
Submitted by Poetry Lover
Vote! | Copy!
Thats The Day
There are burdens that I carry every day,
Sometimes they want to make me cry.
Hopeless feelings harbored deep inside my heart,
And I find it hard to hold my head up high.
In the middle of the darkness in my life,
I find the strength to carry on.
I am holding to a promise jesus made,
And I know it wont be long till well be gone.
In a while, well be gone,
And we wont have to cry anymore, no,
All our sorrows left behind,
And thats the day that I am waiting for.
And thats the day that I am longing for.
Oh....
If you feel there is no meaning in your life.
And it seems youve lost your way.
Listen closely to the voice thats deep inside,
And remember what the savior has to say.
In a while, well be gone,
And we wont have to cry anymore, no,
All our sorrows left behind,
And thats the day that I am waiting for.
And thats the day that I am longing for.
And thats the day that I am looking for.
Oh....
Da, da da, da da, da da, da da, da da....
Da, da da, da da, da da....
song performed by by Amy Grant
Submitted by Lucian Velea
Vote! | Copy!
Somewhere Someone Will Listen To Them
I don't expect anyone to be familiar,
With my memories.
The ones I keep fondly close to me.
How could they be?
When memories affecting me are mine.
Although I am told about myself all the time.
As if my life hangs from a grapevine.
And those experiences,
That came to jolt my emotions...
Are the reasons why some may find me,
Not the one they 'thought' they knew.
Or the one they comfortably gossiped about.
And I know for those with nothing else to do to choose,
This can be quite disappointing.
As long as they are soothed,
By others approving their deceptions too...
There will always be a place for those two-faced.
Somewhere someone will listen to them twist truths.
With an accepting done of their irresistible dysfunctions.
poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar
Submitted by Poetry Lover
Vote! | Copy!
I Don't Want To Live This Life
Now that you're gone i feel the painmy heart trembles i call your name
I miss your touch your soft blonde hair i keep searching for an answer
It just ain't there
And i don't want to live this life and i don't want to live this life
And i don't want to live this life anymore
Everywhere i turn, the finger points on me you'll never understand i'm in misery
'cause baby without you i have no one oh, my sweet darling what have i done
And i don't want to live this life and i don't want to live this life
And i don't want to live this life anymore
She smiled at me as i held her carefully her last words were "i love you"
Thought it ser me free and i can't forget that look on her face
It looked like an angel as she died in my prayers
And i don't want to live this life and i don't want to live this life
And i don't want to live this life anymore
song performed by by Ramones
Submitted by Lucian Velea
Vote! | Copy!