I couldn't fight back
I knew I was defeated.
I knew I had lost.
I couldnt fight back.
I had lost all over again.
A life controlled
By bastards.
Rape and abuse.
Was to take over me.
Each new time.
I was as powerless as the last.
I tryed to fend them off.
But I couldnt.
I was forced to stay still.
So I detached myself
From reality.
Pretended it was all a dream.
Only it was real.
And it was happening.
I tryed to fight back.
But as always I lost.
poem by Amy Louise Kerswell
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Long lost time
long lost time
lost world's
lost...........
just everything
everyone
i have
i only have just only a bite of hope left in me
have you seen?
have you even tryed
to help me?
long lost time
lost world's
have started to come back to me
but are they the same?
have they change?
long lost time
lost world's
lost me
i tryed to
come back
but it hurts so much
long lost time
long lost world's
have found me
but for how long?
until i become
lost again
lost to everything and everyone?
poem by Bethany Seed
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The last and final goodbye
It is here today.
Yes it now but here.
My last and final goodbye.
For my life I no longer can take.
Its all to much to bear.
Bastards have hurt me so much.
All the actions I did
To try and stay.
They all failed.
So I could not stay.
Please belive me I tryed to stay.
But I just couldnt fight any longer.
Please forgive my monnor of leaving.
poem by Amy Louise Kerswell
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Battles lost here is my death
Battels lost here is my death
I have won the Battles
But Lost the war
Bastards are bastards.
And hurt me to much.
I don't want to live anymore
I can't go on
I have suffered for to long
To much Depression and pain
Its hard to stay Sane
Lived through rape and abuse.
Never got over it.
It over road my life.
I don't want to live
So my life I give
Its time for me to go
I won't be missed I know
Cause you don't care
and Life isn't Fair
Amy Kerswell
poem by Amy Louise Kerswell
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The Dream Is Still Alive
Not so long ago we were so in phase
You and I could never forget the days
But then the fire seemed to flicker
Cold wind came and it carried us away
But well get back someday, baby
The dream is still alive
Look here in my eyes
Can you see what Im feeling?
The dream is still alive
The one of you and i
And my heartache is healing
I couldnt let it die
No I knew it would survive
The dream is still alive
Not so long ago in a purple haze
People dreamed out loud they were not afraid
They stopped the war but not the dying
Some got a little bit lost along the way
But somehow were here today
And we say
The dream is still alive
After all this time
The flame keeps on burning
The dream is still alive
The one of you and i
And my heartache is healing
I couldnt let it die
No I knew it would survive
The dream is, the dream is still alive
Oh yeah..
The dream is still alive
Look here in my eyes
Can you see what Im feeling
The dream is still alive
The one of you and i
And my heartache is healing
I couldnt let it die
For all the times we tried
The dream is still alive
song performed by by Wilson Phillips
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Now its time to say goodbye
Now its time for me to say goodbye.
To all the hatred I have known.
Time to end my pain
And leave everything all behind.
I felt my world crashing down
My world come to a hault
I no fight left
As I tryed to through another day.
Try as hard as I might
And yet still I lost.
I just couldnt win
Which no one can deny.
Now as death beckons me
My heart is heavy and sad as it sags
Guess its not all bad
My pain is about to be left behind
Lifes cruel humane
Dealt me to much grief to bare
My hart was sagging
Getting heavier by the day
Breaking more and more.
Now its time to say goodbye
And leave my misery behind
Life can deal a bad hand
But now Im leaving it all behind me
poem by Amy Louise Kerswell
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I said no
Why didnt you listen?
When I said no.
Why did you still carry on?
I was only 5.
But Knew it was wrong.
I tryed to run.
I tryed to get free.
But you held me there.
You wouldnt let me go.
I was your prisoner.
I tryed to say no.
I was iggnored.
You iggnored me.
You carried on.
I remeber your sick words.
This is my pleasure.
You must give me pleasure.
You have to please me.
No I didnt.
Not that you cared.
Your sick in the head
poem by Amy Louise Kerswell
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Cut Up Angels
If we cut out the bad
Well then wed have nothing left
Like I cut up your mouth
The night I stuffed it all in
And you lied to the Angel
Said I stabbed you to death
If we go at the same time
They'll clean up the mess
I lost my head
You couldnt come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun
Watched you bite into the bottle
Watched me kick out the chair
Let you chew up the glass
And laughed as you just hung there
I have thought of rose petals mostly perfect and pure
Then I thought of your petals
And the abuse theyve been through
I lost my head
You couldnt come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun
You lost your head
I couldnt come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun
Whoa whoa
I told the angels
Cant stay in heaven
I asked the devil
If we cut out the bad well then we'd have nothing left
Like I cut up your angels
Yeah you stabbed me to death
I lost my head
You couldnt come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun
You lost your head
I couldnt come
This lust to my brain almost feels like a gun
song performed by by Used
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Battels lost here is my death
I have won the Battles
But Lost the war
Bastards are bastards.
And hurt me to much.
I don't want to live anymore
I can't go on
I have suffered for to long
To much Depression and pain
Its hard to stay Sane
Lived through rape and abuse.
Never got over it.
It over road my life.
I don't want to live
So my life I give
Its time for me to go
I won't be missed I know
Cause you don't care
and Life isn't Fair
poem by Amy Kerswell
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I can't face another day
I'm so very sorry.
But yes its so very very true.
I just cant face another day.
I simply cant live this way.
My life was over so very long ago.
Before it ever really began.
When the bastards entered my life.
I knew then it wouldnt be long.
I just had to find the courage.
To do what I had to do.
When I took my life.
I knew it was for keeps.
My suffering would end.
I tryed not be the victim in life.
But all of that was in usless vain.
poem by Amy Louise Kerswell
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Failure
Maybe i, I didnt seem to have a thing left to say
I bottled it far away
Maybe i, I tried too hard to find someone to blame
Maybe its me who changed
And now, Im left with nothing again
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
So what if I lost everything
Would you be there even when I am gone
Maybe i, I didnt seem to give everything away
Not because I needed you to stay, and i
I couldnt face the fears I left far behind
I try to answer every question to why
Im left with nothing again
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
So what if I lost everything
Would you be there even when I am gone
Maybe you couldnt see
All the pain inside of me
And now I feel like this was all for nothing
cause Im left with nothing, Im left with nothing again
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
So what if I lost everything
Would you be there even when I am gone
So what if I lost everything
Would you want me if I was a failure
song performed by by Unloco
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Love Is On The Run
Just because its raining here
It doesnt mean the sun isnt shining
Somewhere else for someone
You have loved
But whos not near you anymore
When your love is on the run
Dont fall apart at whats begun
Its just the healing process
Of your heart
When your dream has lost its cause
Dont waste your time in closing doors
Youll be the last to know
When love has gone
Love is on the run
Love is on the run
Love is on the run
Love is on the run from me
Love is on the run
Love is on the run
Love is on the run from me
Couldnt find the words to say I love you
Couldnt fight the hurt of holding on
Couldnt hope
Couldnt dream
Couldnt see tomorrow
With out your love
I cant go on
Love is on the run
Love is on the run
Love is on the run
Love is on the run from me
When your love is on the run
Dont fall apart at whats begun
Its just the healing process
Of your heart
When your dream has lost its cause
Dont waste your time in closing doors
Youll be the last to know
When love has gone
Love is on the run
Love is on the run
Love is on the run from me
song performed by by Moody Blues
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We Must Be Thinking Alike
So many nights we didn't fight but never talked much
We just lost touch
I think we knew our dream come true was slowly dying
No denying
Now comes the time we must decide to go or stay
To get it back somehow or throw it all away
We must be thinking alike
You never held me so tight
We must be finally doing something right
I'm not about to give in
This is a fight we can win and after all this time
We must be thinking alike
Let's just stay home
I'll get a pizza and a movie we both wanna see
And later on who knows what we'll find to agree on
It's been so long
Dim down the lights, turn off the phone and the TV
I can tell the way you're smiling back at me that
We must be thinking alike
You never held me so tight
We must be finally doing something right
I'm not about to give in
This is a fight we can win and after all this time
We must be thinking alike
We must be thinking alike
Holding aech other so tight
We must be finally doing something right
I'm not about to give in
This is a fight we can win and after all this time
We must be thinking alike
song performed by by Pam Tillis
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Get It Moving
(david smalley)
Baby, dont you know that I couldnt share you
So, if youre coming back well get things straight
Its been so long since the day you left me
I never thought that Id have to wait
Get it moving back my way
Oh, I couldnt live another day without your love
Get it moving, yeah
Said you didnt want a love that would tie you.
You needed time and would I wait.
Ive been so lost and now Ive got to tell you
I need it all, I cant be second rate.
Get it moving back my way
Oh, I couldnt live another day without your love
Get it moving back my way
I need your loving more each day
Get it moving back my way
I wont be happy till I know youll stay
Said you didnt want a love that would tie you
You needed time and would I wait
Its been so long and now Ive got to tell you
I need it all, I cant be second rate
Get it moving back my way
Oh, I couldnt live another day without your love
song performed by by Eric Carmen
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Heart Away
(robin wilson)
Heres a little something that I brought here for you
It aint much but it might just do
Fairly serious could hardly say
That I couldnt give my heart away
I couldnt give my heart away
Its never enough to feel and say
Throw my promises away
Several things that I could do
But I couldnt give my heart to you
I couldnt give my heart to you
Smokes on the table the matches are lost
Theres room in the back of the bar
Fairly serious could hardly say
That I couldnt give my heart away
I couldnt give my heart away
Aw, its not really serious but I should prove
That I dont mean what I might not do
Not that you wanted it anyway
But I couldnt give my heart away
I couldnt give my heart away...
song performed by by Gin Blossoms
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If I could get back the lost years
If I could get back the lost years
I would kiss and wipe all the tears
That fell when I hurt you
That I never noticed, never knew.
If I could get back the lost years
I would bring you back all the cheers
That I never really could bring you
I cared so little, I never knew.
If I could get back the lost years
I would give anything to be together
Just loving and never hurting you
That so sadly I missed, I never knew.
poem by Pradip Chattopadhyay
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Delayed Reaction
Music: hall
Lyrics: hall/oates/s. allen
You strike a low blow
You fight a dirty fight
Right to the heart youre putting me away
Time was movin slow
But I was in control
There were so many things I shouldve said
But couldnt think of one word
(delayed reaction) oh yeah
At first I was ashamed
Then I was inflamed
I wanted to hurt you
Say that (delayed reaction) oh no
At first I was alright
And then I had to fight
I wanted to hurt you
I wanted to hurt you so
It was a backlash
No I couldnt let it pass
I was so mad I couldnt keep it down
I made it real tough
Ooh I had to blow you off
I couldnt stand it having you around
I couldnt stand the sound, no
(delayed reaction) oh yeah
At first I was ashamed
And then I was inflamed
I wanted to hurt you
Say that (delayed reaction) oh no
At first I was alright
And then I had to fight with you
I wanted to hurt you
I wanted to hurt you so
But if the rage is right
Then you better be wrong
cause if I force a fight well then Im twice a fool
Ooh, I couldve listened more
Was that what you were waiting for?
I cant imagine why
I cant imagine why
I cant imagine why youd wanna let it go
I didnt wanna blow but
(delayed reaction) oh yeah
At first I was ashamed
And then I was inflamed
I wanted to hurt you
Say that delayed reaction oh no
At first I was alright
And then I had to fight with you
I wanted to hurt you so
(delayed reaction) oh yeah
Ooh I had to fight, fight, fight you
(delayed reaction oh no)
Just had to let the love blow to fight a dirty fight
9delayed reaction oh yeah)
What good is saying I lost my head I didnt mean it girl
(delayed reaction) oh no
Ooh baby, ooh baby
I cant imagine why you want to let it go
(delayed reaction)
Ooh, yeah the boys are fine and Im twice the fool
(delayed reaction) oh no
I cant imagine why, I cant imagine why
song performed by by Hall & Oates
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Lost
(kenneth gamble / leon huff / jerry butler)
I was a sad and lonely girl
All alone in this big world, baby, (hey, baby) baby
Lost in a state of misery
Not a soul to comfort me, baby (hey, baby)
I couldnt find no help
Didnt know what to do with myself
Oh, I was standing in confusion
So badly disillusioned
When you wrapped your arms around me
I knew love had found me
I was lost, so long
But found in the nick of time
You know I was lost, so long
But found in the nick of time
Oh, I was lost
I thank the lord that you
Are the one who came to my rescue, baby, (hey, baby)
Thanks for me and this heart of mine
You came just in time, baby, baby (hey, baby)
I couldnt find my way, ooh
Dont you hear what I say? , yeah
Well I was standing in confusion
So badly disillusioned
When you wrapped your arms around me
I knew love had found me
I was lost, so long
But found in the nick of time
You know I was lost (so lost), yeah
But found in the nick of time
Well, I was out here in desperation
No means of communication
Just looking for a sign
Then you threw out your lifeline
Lost, so long
But found in the nick of time
You know I was lost (so lost), yes I was
But found in the nick of time
Well, I was out here in desperation
No means of communication
Just looking for a sign
Then you threw out your lifeline
Oh, so lost, so long
But found in the nick of time
You know I was lost (so lost), yeah
But found in the nick of time
Well, I was out here in desperation
song performed by by Dusty Springfield
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Heartless. Heart Break Truth lies
Girl: so why did you say you loved me when you knew it wasnt true
Boy: Cause i was scarred to loose you
Girl: But thats so un true cause id be lost without you
Boy: Im sorry i lied so many tears you ve cryed bec i never tryed
Girl: you said u felt no connection so why did you stay with me
Boy: bec i never thought it always stay this way
Girl: but today im not okay cause u slowly blown me away with nothing left to say day by day thoughts of you never go away
Boy: im sorry i caused so much greif but i know we can no longer be
Girl: ...
poem by samantha Langridge
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Childhood lost
Lost was my childhood.
Taken from around me from bastards who hurt me.
They were happy playing their games.
Maybe becuase it gave them fame.
All it gave me was pain.
My childhood was lost.
It was taken from me by bastards like you.
As A little girl I was always angry the teachers would say.
If only they knew the truth.
If only they knew why I had so much anger.
It was becuase my childhood was being taken from me.
I never could trust people well after that 9 times.
I hate all of you 5 bastards.
You stole my childhood.
Now later on as I grow older.
It affects me still.
I'm still angry.
My anger has never gone away.
All becuase my childhood was lost too you
poem by Amy Louise Kerswell
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Not to be found
I wasnt to be found this time.
I made sure of it.
I planned it to the very end.
This time I wouldnt be found.
Now Im dead on the ground.
I am satisfied I was not found.
I tryed for to long to fight and stay.
I knew that I never could win.
Im so glad I was not found.
It was pointless you trying to find me.
In my moment of unhealthy glee.
Im gone now I didnt want to be found.
Amy Kerswell
poem by Amy Louise Kerswell
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