<div style="background:#fff;border:#bbb dashed 1px;padding:5px"><a href="http://en.citatepedia.ro/comments.php?id=451924" style="color:#000;text-decoration:none"><div style="margin:10px 0"><strong>A Benchmark Shock</strong></div><div style="margin:10px 0">Today a benchmark shock in self-discovery <br>a colleague explained she read everything <br>on a subject she does not understand when <br>she has to translate a new text on it - feeling <br>terribly guilty I realised I cannot force myself <br>to do that, trying to overcome violent distaste <br>in anything that holds no appeal simply ends <br>in me being ill</div><div style="margin:10px 0">I should have become a nun with my interest <br>in spiritual matters, by this time I would have <br>been feeling totally sinful, dead or locked up <br>in a hospital for the mentally ill, thus the world <br>would have been spared my presence and I <br>would have been enjoying my justly earned <br>suffering for multiple shortcomings - now I <br>am an anchor, a provider </div><div style="margin:10px 0">Sending kids to college, gathering for pension <br>funds, I may not admit how much I detest trying <br>to do things in which I cannot excel - lacking the <br>emotional stability to do things for financial in-<br>crease - only able to survive in between texts <br>by reading fairytales and enacting them in my <br>life - if it were possible to volunteer for early <br>death due to guilt feelings </div><div style="margin:10px 0">I would have been the first one on the list</div><div style="margin:10px 0"><br /></a><br />poem by <a href="http://en.citatepedia.ro/by.php?a=Margaret+Alice+Second">Margaret Alice Second</a><div class=q> <img src="https://www.citatepedia.ro/g/32share.png" style="float:left" alt="Share"> <script type="text/javascript" src="//s7.addthis.com/js/300/addthis_widget.js#pubid=citatepedia" async="async"></script><div style="display:inline-block" class="addthis_sharing_toolbox" data-url="http://en.citatepedia.ro/comments.php?id=451924" data-title="A Benchmark Shock de Margaret Alice Second" data-description="Today a benchmark shock in self-discovery a colleague explained she read everything on a subject she does not understand when she has to translate a new text on it - feeling terribly guilty I realised I cannot force myself to do that, trying ..."></div> </div> </div>

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